Becoming

Chapter 32

After that deep conversation with Greg my whole mood for New Year has been pulled all the way down. I'm still trying to digest everything he told me. He seems to have made peace with what happened, but it must still haunt him. "Hey what's going through that mind of yours?" he asks me.

"Nothing, I'm curious how people celebrate New Year's here" I simply say. "Well let's go find out" he gets up and takes his phone from the table. He is silent for a bit before saying "Right, we are going to the Eiffel Tower. That's where it's most fun to do the countdown" he says. The Eiffel tower was beautiful during the day, but I'm sure it's more beautiful at night.

Okay... I've seen it in pictures and yes, it's beautiful at night, but Im just so excited to see it in person. I was just in pajamas so I change and so does Greg. Instead of room service tonight we decided to eat at a restaurant. Everyone is in New Year's spirit and we have to be stopped by atleast 4 guys inviting us to NYE parties occurring around the city.

We enter a quiet restaurant not far from the Eiffel tower and I can't stop staring at how beautiful the lights are illuminated from inside the restaurant. We order and once our food arrives we dig in. Throughout dinner we are silent and it's not awkward silence, we are just indulging in the food.

The time is 22:16 pm when we leave the restaurant and we decide to walk around the city. Paris has been easy to navigate and we haven't gotten lost once since we got here. "It's even more beautiful at night" Greg smiles looking at the city lights "Just like you" he adds and we turn to eachother close to kissing. "I had the best time here" I tell him.

A couple of people pass by and shout "Prenez une chambre!" (Get a room) at us and we have to stop and laugh at them. Drunk people. We continue walking and once we reach the Eiffel tower there are people sitting in camp chairs and some sitting on blankets. We decide to take an empty bench and just enjoy the beauty.

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"10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5....." as count down is happening I am looking into Greg's eyes and I can definitely say that we still have a long way to go as a couples, but have come a long way individually. "Bonne année!" (Happy New Year) everyone around us shouts and we kiss. The kiss is long and filled with fire and so much love.

"Je t'aime" (I love you) we say in unison and look at the fireworks above us. I smile to myself as I think about the past two years of my life. I'm in such a different place right now and I feel like I'm living a fairytale.

I know life is not a fairytale and that there will be many obstacles to come whether for my career, family, friendships or with Greg. I am just happy in knowing that I am becoming... I am becoming the best version of myself every day.