Becoming

Chapter 31

It's New Years Eve.

For the past two days Greg and I were up and down doing site seeing. Yesterday we went to the Eiffel Tower, did some wine tasting and ate 2 of the most recommended dishes the city has to offer. Today we are staying indoors just enjoying being in eachother's company.

"Look at us. Acting like an old married couple" he stops rubbing my back for a bit and looks down at me. I chew my popcorn and turn to look at him. "Are you foreshadowing Mr Forbes" I hit his nose with a popcorn and he grabs my hand biting it playfully.

He is quiet for a while before he begins to speak. "I wish we could stay here forever" he kisses my cheek. "Me too" I look into his eyes and they full of lust. "Your birthday is coming soon" I speak while pinching his nose. "I'm getting old" he sighs. "Your first birthday with me" I smile at him. I smile a lot when he's around

"And I'm planning to have many more to come with you in my life" My heart beats faster at those words. "I want to make you so happy. Im so happy you gave me a chance, I'm glad you gave us a chance" he says and at this point I'm just staring at him with no words to say.

"I'm not the perfect man and I'm still going to make mistakes. There will be days where we fight and that's okay, because relationships aren't perfect. I'm going to be protective of you and you might hate me for that, but it's all because I love you and want the best for you" He stops, but having been with him for all this time I know he's not done yet and in cue he continues speaking.

"Back in University, while I was doing first year I met this girl and she was everything I wanted. Smart, funny and beautiful you know, the ideal package. We dated for three years and then she wanted to break up. I was really confused because everything was going great" he pulls me closer to him.

"I wasn't taking the breakup well and it totally messed me up, because she didn't give me a valid reason why she wanted nothing to do with me. After months and months of not seeing her on campus I heard she dropped out. She just went MIA" he looks at me horrified and I hold his hands.

"It was my final year and I hadn't spoken to her since the break up when news surfaced that she committed suicide" he stops talking and I feel lightheaded from this information. I know I should be saying something, but my voice is nowhere to be found.

"Her mother told everyone that she was pregnant and killed herself because she was a shame to her family. She was raised in a very religious family. After that I blamed myself. I just didn't understand why she didn't tell me, we would've worked things out" he looks at me.

"Greg, I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry" I feel tears, but I don't want to cry because I'm trying to be strong for the both of us. "I stopped dating after that and every woman after her was just for sex or to fill a void, but when I saw you walk in at Simmons and Adkins for the first time, I fell for you, you could say it was love at first sight" he smiles at me.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier, how old was she, what was sh-" he cuts me off with a low laugh. "Hey, I wanted the right time. I didn't want to just tell you right after we started dating. I was scared of scaring you off" he says and I shake my head.

"It is not your fault. You didn't kill her. She took that decision and it hurts that your child died too" I move my hand and place it on his cheek. "I'm just so happy that I have been given another chance at love and I don't want to mess it up" he moves closer to me and we hug eachother for what feels like eternity.

I know what it is like to lose someone that you hoped you were going to spend the rest of your life with. Just like me, Greg lost someone who truly deeply loved and we have both been given a chance to experience it all over again.