In my short but not dull 17 years of life
I have had my heartbroken by a rainbow of personalities
Some I am grateful for
They opened my eyes to what was going on
In the long run they made me better
And this isn't really heart break
I know that as I have felt my heart shatter at the words of another
I wasn't in love with my frog prince
But this separation still hurts
I cared for him deeply
And I could feel myself approaching love
He was the first person I've felt comfortable with He is the first guy I never hesitated to kiss
And I know that seems dumb and immature
And some may say I am acting like a child
But with my history I've always been scared
Scared I'd never really feel comfortable with someone
He showed me I was wrong
For the first time I felt like I didn't have to change myself
He liked me for all the weird shit I did
And when he ended things he did so for both of us
Made sure I knew it wasn't my fault
And if it's what's good for him than I'm happy
Because no matter what I just want him okay
As much as I wish I could help
I know right now what's best for him
Isn't another person to worry about
I fear I'll lose him completely over this
Which hurts as I have loved him as a friend
Far longer than our romantic relationship lasted
He was my close friend before boyfriend
And now I feel he will be neither
And that scares me more than anything
But if it means he'll be okay
I'm willing to sacrifice my feelings in this matter
Because all I want is for him to be on the better side of okay
And if he is than I will be too
It hurts right now
All I want to do if cry and talk to my Big Bear
But it will pass
Maybe even make my future easier
Now there will be no need for a 'I'm moving hours away' discussion
There will be no temptation to alter my future for someone else
And by next year I will forget this feeling in my heart
The burn behind my eyes from persistent tears
And I will be preparing to move out of my town
Away from the people I love so dearly
And into a world I've never seen before
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Friday, April 24th, 2020 (40th day of quarantine because of COVID-19)
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Daily Quarantine Poetry
PoetryI have decided to write a poem a day describing how I am feeling, what I did that day, and/or my main thoughts revolving the day for the duration of my quarantine. This will go through a world win of emotions and there will probably just be straight...
