Undone

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I woke up slowly, my body aching as a result of my night with Colby. Last night was amazing, aside from my date with Jackson. Jackson was nothing like Colby. Colby was respectful and caring. And Jackson was undoubtedly rude. I can't even believe I went out with him. I need to check up on my judgement, Colby was making my head fuzzy. He had been ever since he began acting strange . At least now he was willing to talk about it. I wonder what was making him act this way. Maybe him and Sam were fighting. They were the worlds best friends- but even they had their disagreements. Or maybe Colby had found someone, and he didn't know how to break this off. A subtle pain slipped through my body, what if he had? If he broke this off, I don't know what I would do. I actually liked hanging out with him, if he ended this, we definitely wouldn't be around each other any longer. It would be too awkward. I would never be able to spend time with him without thinking about us. The way he would talk to me when he wanted me. The way he would laugh at almost everything, making his baby face prominent. He hated his baby face. but I thought it was adorable. My thoughts jumped to last night again. The words "I love you" bounced around my brain. He couldn't have said that to me. I had to have been dreaming. But i swear I heard his voice. "What are you thinking?"  I jumped a little, my gaze swinging to Colby's. "Just random thoughts. How long have you been watching me?" He smiled, his face flushing pink. "Not that long . . . okay for a couple of minutes. You're just so damn cute when you're deep in thought." I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in the crook of his neck, attempting to hide the redness clouding my skin. He laughed, brushing his fingers through my hair. "Seriously though, what were you thinking about? Had to be something serious for you not to notice me blatantly staring at you." I cuddled closer to him, trying to collect my thoughts. What was I supposed to say? I can't tell him. What if I was wrong? No doubt he would be freaked out if I asked him about that. If I was being rational, I would just believe it was a dream, but these last few weeks have been nothing compared to what I wanted them to be. For God's sake I called him baby last night! Shit. I had forgotten about that. What is going on with us? I could understand him breaking our rules-he had done it countless times-but me? I swore I wouldn't do that. "I don't know." I mindlessly answered. Great, now he knows somethings off. Right on cue, Colby pulled me up by my shoulders. " I'm not buying that. What's going on in that pretty little head of yours?" " I don't know, Colby. I really don't." He bit his lip, he knew I wasn't telling the whole truth. " Jade. I know you're lying, you know that right?" I nodded silently. He sighed," Do you need to talk about it?" " No." I said automatically," You said you needed to talk, so let's talk." He clenched his jaw in what I guessed was frustration," Can we get up first? I don't want to do this while we're in my bed. Otherwise . . . we're gonna get distracted." 

I laughed, and got up, searching for my clothes. "They're over there." Colby said, pointing to the opposite side of the room. I rushed over in that direction and quickly got dressed, then went to the bathroom. After fixing my hair and makeup a bit, I wound up back in Colby's room to find him half asleep. "Why are you still in bed?" "Why are you rushing around?" He asked groggily. " I want to understand what's going on with you. Do you not want to talk anymore-cause I can leave." Colby bolted out of bed, frantically running to his closet," No! No, I'm getting up!" I giggled and he stopped in his tracks. " You think that's funny?" I froze, seeing the gleaming look in his eyes. " Yeah, I do." I answered, a cocky tone in my voice. He smirked," I don't think you'll be laughing after this." I shrieked as Colby grabbed me and threw me on his bed. He climbed on top of me quickly, taking a hold of my wrists and pinning them against my head. Using his other hand, he began tickling me. " Stop!! Colby!" He laughed at me as I screamed and thrashed on his bed, trying to get him off. " Mercy! Please!" He kept a grip on my wrists, and gave me a quick kiss, before letting me go. " You're an asshole." Sending me a smirk, he leaned down, his lips a breath away from mine. " I am not. But I can be- if you want." I shook my head, biting my lip to keep from laughing. Colby chuckled and began getting dressed. Once he was done, he sat down next to me again. " So I guess we're doing this now." " Yep. Are you having second thoughts?" "No, I just . . . I'm scared." He admitted, whispering the last part. " Of what?" " Ruining things." Colby answered shortly. " What would you be ruining?" "You're just full of questions aren't you?" I felt my face heat up. " Sorry." What could he possibly be scared of ruining? And he was avoiding my question. Was he talking about us? If he was, I wasn't so sure about my theory of him finding a girl. If he had found someone that he loved he wouldn't be scared of ending things with me. It had to be something else. Colby took my hand in his and laced our fingers together. " No, I'm sorry. I'm just freaking out a bit." He laughed, but it sounded a little forced. An alert from his phone rang through the air. Colby's smile slid right off his face as he read the message. 

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