Undone

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" I don't have a boyfriend, Alexa!"  " Then who's Colby?" I groaned into the phone," He's not my boyfriend Lex! We just. . . hooked up  a couple times, and um. . . it's complicated." " How complicated could it possibly be for you to keep this from me? " " Trust me, it's really complicated." " How so?" She asked, switching to her serious voice. This is what I loved most about Alexa, she always knew when something was up, always knew when I needed her. Yeah we had our disagreements, but we were always there for each other, no matter what was going on privately." Give me a sec." I told her, glancing at Colby who had been watching me like a hawk ever since I picked up the phone. "I'll be right back." I left the room, heading for the balcony. I shut the door behind me as Alexa began talking again. " You still there?" " Yep, sorry I just had to get some privacy." " What do you mean? Is he with you?!" I sighed," Yeah he is. I didn't want him listening." " Okay, okay. Let me prepare myself." She took a deep breathe and let out an exaggerated sigh. I rolled my eyes at her dramatic attitude, she had always had a flair for being for being extravagant. " I'm good now! Tell me!!" I told her and I went through it all, every last bit. How I had been invited to a party, Sam's party to be exact, who was Colby's best friend. From the moment I laid eyes on him I was shocked.

 We had met a few times before that night, but nothing could compare to how he looked then. He was about the most gorgeous man I'd ever seen. That day felt like the longest day ever, I had an unsettling amount of work to do, meetings to attend, and people to meet, and I just wanted to get wasted. So I did. Before I knew it, we were stumbling back to his apartment, stripping each other of what little clothes we had on and proceeding to drunkenly hook up. We didn't see each other for weeks after that, but when we did, I proposed the idea of having a friends with benefits relationship. Alexa gasped through the phone," Damn Jade! I didn't know you had that in you!" " Let me finish!" I huffed, secretly wishing she could see the way I rolled my eyes at her, then began telling the rest of the story. How Colby refused at first, he didn't want that type of relationship, with me or anyone else. But a couple weeks after we found ourselves in the same position all over again, bumping into each other at a party, willingly going home with together yet again. That morning, upon realizing that we had repeated our mistakes, he agreed. Thus, our complicated crazy relationship began. I explained to Alexa that we had conjured up rules, to make sure neither of us caught feelings. No pet names, no "dates", no telling anyone. I told her how we had actually begun hanging out as friends, not knowing what it would lead to. 

And that Colby had begun acting strange with me. Making comments about us, or how he would get jealous every time he caught another guy looking at me. The way he would look at me sometimes would drive me insane, it does to this day. Those little moments together that made me wish I could freeze time. I never knew what those meant, but explaining all of this to her, made almost everything make sense. I could practically see Alexa shaking her head at me when I mentioned my deranged date with Jackson. And how I had immediately gone to Colby's apartment after. I briefly described what happened when I arrived, not wanting to go into detail. I took a deep breath when I went over the moment he had told me that he loved me. Alexa squealed so loud I had to out my phone. " Bitch shut up! All of L.A. can hear your loud ass!" " Well I'm sorry that you've finally found someone! Don't even start with me! Did you tell him you loved him too!?" " You didn't! Jade what the hell is wrong with you!" She yelled after a beat of silence." Leave it to you to fuck up an amazing start at a relationship!" " I didn't fuck it up! He asked me out!" I protested. " Well, I'm glad one of you is thinking straight! Do you love him?" I hesitated yet again," I don't know Lex, this is all so confusing to me. It wasn't even supposed to happen!" " Jade, it's really not that hard. Do you have feelings for him or would you rather never talk to him again." I sighed," Sometimes I don't like you."  She laughed," So, when do I get to meet him?!"

Sorry guys! I've been contemplating whether or not to post because of what's been going on lately. If you're going to any protests, make sure to wear the proper clothing and be respectful! Stay safe and don't forget to vote! <3