Undone

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I hesitated, sorting through the pros and cons of what my answer could be. How did this even happen? I can't believe that he thinks this way of me. He legitimately doesn't even know me well enough to even think that he loves me. But maybe he knew me in the way I knew him. The way I knew when he was nervous by the way he would always bite his lip, and he would get this specific look in his eyes, like he just wanted to run away. They way I knew when he was happy, the way his eyes would light up like he was the luckiest person in the world. You could always see the pure joy on his face even when he tried to hide it. Maybe that's what he was meaning. He loved the little things about me. But what if I was wrong? The look in Colby's eyes made me shove every thought out of my mind. It didn't matter what the pros and cons were. I was going to try. And that's all that mattered.

 " Yes." I answered surely. I wasn't going to put up a wall, I wasn't going to shut him out. I was going to give him, and myself, a chance. Colby picked me up, spinning us around a couple of times, then set me down, shoving his lips to mine. His tongue swiped across my bottom lip, and I opened to him. I savored this moment, soaking him in. My hands made their way into his hair, digging themselves into his soft brown curls. He finally pulled away, leaving his eyes closed," You have no idea how happy that one word just made me." I giggled and pressed a quick kiss to his lips. " You're adorable." "Says you. I'm serious though. I've been loosing my mind over this and I'm still loosing it, but I love you."

I gave him a stern look," Stop it." " Nope, I know you don't believe me. But I do." I shook my head and rolled my eyes, but a grin forced its way onto my lips. He was full of it. But I guess I was too. " Have you told anyone about this?" I asked, nervous of the answer. None of our friends knew about the "friends with benefits" thing and now we;re going on a date. What would they think? He glanced away from me, a blush creeping up his face," Sam . . . and Brennen." " Did he mention it to Alexa?" I asked, feeling nervous again. " I'm not sure. Want me to ask him?" " No, it's okay. I need to tell her myself. If he did tell her, she's probably pissed at me for not mentioning it to her." " Why didn't you?" I hesitated for a moment before answering," I was embarrassed. I didn't know how she would react." 

" I felt the same way. But Sam and Brennen both suspected something was up since I was acting so weird. And ya know, the fact that I would openly check you out whenever we would hang out as a group." " That obvious, huh?" I joked. Colby held his hands up in defeat," What can I say? You give me no choice!" " Oh whatever! I didn't even realize you did that, why?" Colby grabbed my hips, pulling them to meet his," Why? Are you kidding me, Jade? First off, I knew there was something different about you from the start. I'm pretty sure I knew, subconsciously, that I would fall for you. And second off, you're fucking gorgeous. I know you don't totally agree with me on that," he added when I gave a not-so-subtle eye roll," but for fucks sake, Jade, you're a model."

"So are you!" I argued. He shook his head," Bullshit. That's only for my merch." " Oh really? What about all those pictures on Instagram? Huh? The only bullshit in this conversation was that statement." He shook his head again, and laid on his bed, muttering under his breath. I couldn't hear everything but I caught " stubborn ass" and "last word". " What's coming out of your mouth sir? Better not be about me!" He scrunched up his face," Of course not. Never about you." Crawling onto the bed with him, positioning myself over him, I smirked," Oh? You sure about that?" I waited a second before adding," Stubborn ass." He chuckled before leaning close to me, his breath hot on my face," And by the way, I like it when you call me sir." " Oh fuck off!" I exclaimed, smacking his chest.

Colby laughed loudly upon my reaction. " You're disgusting!"  " I was joking, calm down." He muttered, grabbing my hips, pushing them down onto his, and biting his lip. I began rocking my hips a bit, just enough to get him riled up. Once I felt him, I halted my hips. "Jade!" He whined," Don't do that!" " Don't do what?" I asked, attempting to stop the smirk threatening to fight its way on my face. I slowly pressed my lips to his, wrapping my arms around his neck. Colby moaned into my mouth as I started grinding my hips into his again. " Hold up." Colby said suddenly, sitting up and grabbing his phone. " What?" " I had plans with Brennen tonight. I need to tell him I can't make it." "Why not?" " He looked down at my lips before continuing," You really think I'm gonna leave right now?" 

Today was hard for a lot of us, but I know it was harder for all of the people that knew and loved Corey. He will always be in out hearts and he will always be an inspiration to many of us. Fly high Corey <3