Quarantine [Tag Book]

The Allergy of Noise

     So, there's this issue that I've had... for a very long time... where noises make me angry, and I have these fight or flight responses to those noises, and it's actually like a disorder. 

     I threw a box at my ex boyfriend for crunching chips once... He thought it was funny, and crunched them even more. So I ran out of the building and just left him there for about an hour.

     I ran out of the church building because some kid kept smacking and popping their gum like crazy.

      I once pinched the back of my hand until it bled, trying to keep myself from freaking out on people in the booth behind me, crunching their chips with their mouths wide open.

      I'm cray cray. I'm kidding, I'm not saying that this gives me an excuse to act the way I do when I hear these specific noises, I just haven't found the calm way to react to them yet. My mom chews super loud and she's not aware of it, so I do everything in my power to not sit at the table at dinner time, I either sit at our island or in the computer room. I feel bad because we don't eat dinner as a family because my dad does the same thing, but I don't really feel like I have much of a choice.

      People say that I just don't like these noises because my dad doesn't like them, but I hated the noise of smacking food and gum or crunching chips for as long as I can remember- even before my dad came into my life, so I officially classify as a misophoniac. 

      I'm allergic to noise.