dear jaehyun ii

"why did you hide from me?"

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i sat on a bench, with tears still flooding for my eyes. my heart beating as rapid as it could have been. i was unable to accept reality. jaehyun.. and eunji? no, it can't be. he wouldn't have treat me like this now if he actually dated -

"hey jiwoo!" jaehyun shouted from afar.

"what's wrong?" he placed his arm on my shoulder and i flinched at his touch.

i stood up from the bench and threw the diary at him. "can you explain this?" i asked politely.

jaehyun was dumbfounded. his jaw hung low. he stared at the cover for a good thirty seconds, before fixing his gaze and looked at me in the eye. we stayed silent for awhile.

"you knew my father all along? my sister too?" my voice broke as i was finding my words which drowned in my throat.

"i can explain,"

"i've heard too much of that phrase. i'm starting to hate it. you know, i thought i could trust you in regaining my memories? only to know that you were part of my painful past. you could have told me the truth. why did you and appa hide this from me?" i sighed.

"i'm sorry," was all he could say as he looked at me in the eye.

"whatever, i'm going," i replied.

the moment where i inched a step forward, i felt something heavy on me, not letting me go. i felt a pair of arms wrapping my waist. jaehyun is hugging me. tears rolled down my eyes profusely. my head was a huge mess. my knees grew weaker.

"i know you're angry at me, and your dad. but thing is, we did this to protect you. i'll tell you honestly, yes i did dated eunji and i was brainwashed by her. you warned me of her tactics, but i refused to listen to you. i hurt you, so much. i left her in the end, because you were the one whom i genuinely love," jaehyun whispered softly.

i released from his grip and turned around to face him. jaehyun cupped my cheeks carefully, "after i left her, i found out she was just playing me like a toy. she wanted me just so that you couldn't have me. she just didn't want to see you happy and she used me. i wanted to tell you everything but, time wasn't very nice to us. i'm really sorry, jiwoo. i really am. it'll be hard for you to forgive us. take the time you'll need. i'll still wait for you," a tear trickled down his eye.

he must have felt the pain too. i could feel his sincerity, his warmth, his care. i could feel everything.

"w..wait? what are you trying to say?" i asked.

"ever since i had my eyes on you since the first time we met, there's something about you that i just couldn't comprehend. i might be crazy saying this but, after knowing you, i only had my eyes on you. jiwoo, i like you," jaehyun caressed my cheek softly as he let his words flow through his confession.

i was at a loss of words. i didn't know how to react, or how to reply. jaehyun really meant what he said. carefully, i wrapped my arms around his waist, and he did the same. jaehyun rested his chin on my shoulder and sobbed silently. we held our embrace tight, not letting go of each other. we shed tears silently together, just the two of us.

"no matter what happens, let me protect you. without you, i don't know how to live my day," jaehyun whispered with a smile.

i nodded while keeping silent. i think i can trust you, jaehyun. his intentions are genuine, i know it well.

"don't run away from home, okay? i'll walk you back home," he broke the embrace and held onto my hand and walked hand in hand back home.