I KNOW WHO I AM

Chapter 18 (Hurts)

It's been two month since I date Harris. Everything seems fine about us. Started one month ago, we rarely meet each other because of the tight schedule. Well, I'm not really busy but Harris seems so busy and I decided not to disturb him.

"Yannn, can you accompany me to the mall after this? I want to buy something. We can also eat lunch at the mall" Lara ask me.

I just nod at her. I texted Harris and asked him whether he already took his lunch or not and he replied my message by saying that he doesn't even have time to eat. I give him moral support then followed Lara to her car.

"Ehh Yann, isn't that Harris?" Lara pointed to the person that she talk about.

I look at the direction and I clearly saw Harris with a girl laughing happily. My heart aches. I tried to control my emotion so that I didn't make any bad assumption towards Harris. I drag Lara's hand and we walk to Harris.

"Hye Harris!" I greet by giving the best voice that I had. So that I didn't show any anger in my voice.

He looks startled then his eyes went to the person next to him. That girl seems pretty, she has the same height as me and I hate to say this but she have a nice skin than me. I mean a fair skin and a plump lips.

"Yan...." He replied.

"Who is this honey? Is this your classmate? Never saw them before" That girl ask Harris and look at us.

Then she greet us happily.

"Hye guys! I'm Azmina" She greeted us while stretching out her hand for us.

I reached out her hand and give her the best smile that I can give.

"Hye, I'm Yanna and this is Lara. We are not Harris classmate, just know him from the Chinese language Club" I replied.

She nod.

"Uhhhh, we gotta go. We just want to say hi to Harris. See you soon!" I said and starts to walk away from there.

"Yan!" Harris called me.

I ignored his call and continue with my walk. My heart hurts, what did I do wrong that he decided to cheat on me? Lara tried to comfort me when we reached at her car.

I want to cry but I decided not to. I ask Lara to just drive to the mall and continue with our plan. At first, Lara protest but when she saw that I insist, she decided to follow with my decision.

We walk at the mall and I keep following where she goes. She kept asking whether I'm okay or not and I kept saying that I'm okay. My phone vibrates non-stop. I already know who is the caller so I decided to ignore the call. I'm not ready to talk with him yet.

"Where do you want to eat?" I asked Lara.

"Do you want to eat tom yum?" She asked me

I just nod, Lara really knows me well. She knows when I'm sad, I will always find tom yum. Because my grandpa always bring me to eat tom yum when he saw me sad.

We walk to the tom yum arena and give our order to the seller. After a while, our order arrived and we eat silently. Nobody bother to starts a conversation since both of us knows that this is not a suitable time for chit chatting.

After finish with lunch, Lara send me home and I could saw Harris standing in front of my house. I grunt.

"Do you want me to turnover?" Lara ask.

"No, I think I need to talk with him. I can't run forever right?" I smiled weakly.

After Lara drop me off, I walk to Harris.

"Yan.." He called my name slowly.

I look at him without uttering any words.

"Yan.. I'm sorry, I don't have anything to do with her. I just take her as a friend. Nothing more than that. Please Yan, talk to me" He said while trying to search for my eyes.

"Is that what you said about me to her too?" I asked him.

"Noo.. please Yan. I'm so sorry, please believe me." He pleaded.

"Just give me some time okay?" I said and walk away from him. I could feel that my eyes starts to become hots as the tears starts to falling down on my cheek.

I walk to my room and starts to cry. I like him a lot and our relationship is just in the beginning phase. How come we became like this? Am I not good enough to him? Don't I give the best for him?

I keep blaming myself until I fall asleep. I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing.

"Hello?" I answered the phone without looking at the name of the caller. I could hear my voice becomes hoarse as I cry a lot.

"Yan? Are you sick?" The caller ask me. I look at the screen of my phone and saw Market Pervert name.

I sigh, I can't run from him since he already hear my voice.

"Nothing, maybe because I just woke up from sleep" I lied. I'm sorry Oat, I'm not ready to tell you the truth. Maybe because this is my personal matter and I don't want him to know about that.

"Oh.. Well I will come to Malaysia in three days. Does my private tour ticket still available?" he asked me.

I chuckled at his question.

"Yes Mr Oat. Your ticket is still available. So today is Tuesday, your flight is on Friday?" I ask him.

"Yup, so are you free this Saturday?"

"Yes, do you have someone to fetch you at the airport? Ohhh I forgot, young master always have someone to pick them up" I said jokingly.

He laughed at my words.

"Okay so see you on Saturday! Just text me the place okay?" I said to him.

"Alright, can't wait to see you. Already miss you" He answered.

I rolled my eyes at his answer. I don't really mind him since he always jokes for a lot of things. After we hung up our call, I enter the bathroom to take a shower.

Well at least I have something to do on the weekend. So that I won't keep thinking about Harris. I decided to distant myself from him for a while. I mean if he really want us to get back together, he would surely tried to find me. I keep saying to myself that I shouldn't forgive a cheater, but can I forget Harris?

Maybe after this, I would give him a chance to explain himself and after that I would consider whether I want to get back with him or not.

(Sorry guys, I haven't post in a while. I got a really tight schedule! This time it's for real, not like Harris who cheat on Yan. Hehehehehehehehe. I hope you enjoy this chapter)