I KNOW WHO I AM

Chapter 12 (Special)

"Oat!" I call him as I walk to lobby. He look exhausted, did he just got off from work?

He smile at me widely before trying to hug me. I kick his leg and hit him with my handbag. I know he doesn't have the intention to hug me for real, he just tease me.

"Why do you look tired? Did you have work today?" I ask him as we walk to his car.

"Yes, today I was so busy with the shooting and interview. I don't even have any time to rest" He replied

"Then why don't you rest? Instead of going out with me, you can get a nice sleep in your room."

"Nahhh, just seeing you can boost my energy level" Then he wink at me. I slap his shoulder, and he just pouted.

"Seriously, you should take a rest. You look exhausted."

"Hmmm" He just nod and focus on the road.

As usual, he took me to a nice restaurant that makes me feel I don't belong here. I mean, look at me. Wearing hoodies and sneaker. This place is so out of my league. I want to argue with him about this place, but I shut my mouth because I don't want to makes him feels tired by arguing with me.

After ordering the food, we starts our conversation with him asking about my trip with Harris.

"So how was your trip to Udon Thani?" He asked.

"It was splendid! The panoramic view there was so spectacular. I wish I can go there again." I replied enthusiastically. Then I told him about the legend of the lake and I also told him about the keychain that I bought for my parent.

"Don't you bought anything for me?" He asked.

"Nope, why would I? You are already rich, if I buy something for you. My present would be so out of place comparing to all the things that you have" I replied while eating my food.

"If it was from you, that would be the most special present that I would treasure" He replied slowly, but since I'm too indulge in my food. I can't seems to focus to what he said.

"What did you say?" I ask him again.

"Nothing, just eat" He replied before he starts to play with his food.

"Stop playing with your food and eat it before it turns cold. Geez, you are like my brothers. Love to play with food" I hit his hand with my spoon.

"You have brothers? Tell me about your family"

"Eat your food first then I would tell you about my family" I replied and I saw him pouting before he slowly starts to eat.

After finish with dinner, he take me to a park. There is not many people here since it is already dark.

"You said you want to tell me about your family" He starts the conversation.

"Okay mister. What do you want to know?"

"Tell me everything, about you brother. Your mother and your father. You can also tell me about you cousin, your aunty, your uncle, your.."

"Okay stop! I will start"

He just laughed.

"Well, I got two brothers. Dew and Day"

"They got Thai name?" He interrupt.

"Yes, my mom love to watch Thai series that he even named us with Thai name. Mine is Nin Yanna. My second brother's name is Dayyan Hanif and the last one name Dew Naqib." I explained.

"Nin as in sapphire?" He asked.

"Yup! My mom is a single mom. She works very hard to raise us. My father left us when I was 4. Since then, I learn to become independent so that I can help my mom to take care of my brothers. I do a lot of part time job to help in term of paying fee for my brother's studies. Look at my hand, it was as rough as man's hand" I showed him my hand and laugh slowly.

Then I continue.

"My life was not easy. That's why I need to really focus on my studies so that I can achieve all my dreams"

He look at me with sympathy.

"Don't look at me like that. I don't like people to see me as a weak woman. If I'm gonna success one day, I want them to see it as my own effort. Not because of the sympathy that people gave me"

He look at the ground while playing with his hand. Huh Yan! What a great story to spoil the mood. To break the silence that lingered us, I ask him about his life.

"What about you? You must have a great life" I ask him.

"I do have a great father and mother. They raise me well, my mom is a beautiful woman with kind heart. I do remember when I was a kid, I always had a nightmare. Then she will come to my room with milk and cookies then starts to read a storybook for me"

"Your mom is a great woman. No wonder you got a nice skin, your mom take a good care of you. You must be so close with your mom until now. She must be very tired to treat a child like you who act like a kid" I said jokingly.

"I hope she will still be here with me now. She passed away when I was 15. One day she got sick and one week after that, she is gone" I could sense the sadness from his voice.

"Don't worry, at least you still have a dad who cares about you" I cheer him up.

He nodded his head and smile weakly at me.

After that, we talk about or life, about his career and about my studies. Not long after that, we realized that it was already late at night and we need to go home.

"So tomorrow you will go back to Malaysia?" He ask me.

I nod my head and continue my walk to his car.

"Before you go, wait for me at the lobby."

"Why?" I frowned.

"Just wait for me okay?" He said and wait for my confirmation.

"Okayy.. Okayy. But don't be late or I might leave you" I replied.

Then he drive me to my hotel. After saying goodbye, I went to my room and plop myself on my bed.

"Well, well, well. See who's back after enjoying her day out" Lara mock me.

I force myself to sit on the bed properly and put my head on her shoulder.

"I'm tired" I said to her while closing my mouth with the back of my hand because of the yawn.

"Hey! You promise to tell me about your trip with Harris, and now I want you to also tell me about your night out with P'Oat"

Then I told Lara about my trip with Harris, I can't stop smiling when I talk about that.

"Wow Yan! That was so romantic, I wish someone would bring me there too. So what about P'Oat? Why did he suddenly want to have dinner with you?"

I shrugged.

"I don't know, he just got off from work and look really tired but he still want to have dinner with me" I told her.

"So where did you guys go?"

"As usual, he bring me to a nice restaurant and then we went to a park. Nothing special" I explained.

"Ahh.. I see. Don't you feel weird? Why did he suddenly want to get close to you?"

I just shake my head and close my eyes. Maybe Oat just want to be friend with me. Who knows, he might be lonely. I said to myself.

"What about you? You said you want to tell me about you and Sammy?" I ask her.

"Go wash your face and your feet, then you can sleep. Before that, don't forget to pack your things. Our bus will wait for us early in the morning" She said while caressing my head and avoiding eye contact. Never mind, I will dig all the information tomorrow since I'm very tired right now.

I lazily get off from the bed and headed to the bathroom.