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P-pota...

I unconsiously looked on the tote bag on the table and shifted my gaze on the bouquet of daisies on the bed.

"kanya galing ito?" Tinagilid ko ang ulo ko saka nilagay ang daliri sa aking baba.

ilalagay ko na sana ang tote bag sa bed  nang mag-lit up uli ang aking phone

Co_Diez: You could bring it nalang sa office after ng shift mo? Asa site ako sa Bataan ngayon. Anyways did you like it? 

napangiwi ako at tinignan ang aking relo at nakitang tapos na pala ang break ko.

Hindi pa ako nakatulog!

bumuntong hininga na lamang ako at binulsang muli ang phone ko sa aking coat saka inayos ang aking sarili bago lumabas.

"scalpel." I commanded not taking my eyes off the cut I made down the center of the patient's chest just right below the Adam's apple.

After my break I made my way here to the OR since I have a heart transplantation to conduct. I had to conduct a heart transplant for the patient is going through cardiomyopathy meaning that the heart muscle is enlarged, thick and stiff making it hard to pump blood.

I have to give my full attention to my patient because of the risks on the plate if anything goes wrong like  CAV, Infection, Kidney failure and many more but the worst risk is Death.

"Ang daming nanonood ah." Ani ni Justale habang hinihiwa ko ang breastbone sa kalahati

he was pertaining to the people watching from the ampitheater. I still did not take my eyes off the patient.

"Oh? Baka hanap ka." sabi ko naman  nang ilalagay ko na ang tubo

I heard him snicker. "Nasa hospital room yung nag-hahanap sa akin." he said 

Ngumiwi na lamang ako saka ipinagpatuloy ang ginagawa.

"Bawal yan doc." ngisi ko sa kanya

"Kaysa naman mawala ang lahat sa kanya." seryoso nitong sabi

nawala naman ang ngiti sa aking labi nang may taong sumagi sa aking isipan na maaaring tinutukoy niya

"Hay!" sabi ko nang malanghap ang ramen na kinakain ni Reia.

sa cafeteria ako dumiretso para sana bumili ng tubig nang  makita ko siyang kumakain kaya pagkatapos kong bumili ay pumunta ako sa kanya.

hindi niya ako pinansin nang umupo ako sa kanyang tabi.

"Bad trip ka?" I asked her my eyes full of worry when I reached for her arm saka iyon hinaplos

she just looked down but it didn't hide the fact that I saw a tear fell. I quickly held her shoulders and made her face me.

she looked down not bothering to look at me so I pulled her closer to my shoulder

"What's the problem?" I gently asked her while I stroked her hair.

she cried.

I did not asked for more and just let her sob on my shoulder.

humiwalay ito sa akin nang mapatahan na ang sarili. at saka ako hinarap nang may mga matang mugto.

"How did you move on?" she randomly asked me

she asked me a question I don't even know how to answer.

because in the first place did I even moved on?

bumuntonghininga na lamang ako saka binuksan ang tubig ko saka iyon ininom hanggang sa mapangalahati ko iyon.

"Why move on eh hindi naman naging kami." I answered her while looking far away.

"Someone died." she whispered which made me face her

I creased my forehead and scanned her face.

and I only saw one emotion

Guilt.

"I saw him with another... It ate me.." she looked down again not catching my eyes.

Hinayaan ko lang itong magkwento kahitna paputol-putol iyon 

"It ate me so much that it made me lose my professionalism and composure to perform  craniotomy..." she sobbed "I was going to remoive tumor but I made it worse..."

I hugged her and whispered comforting words.

"shh... no it's not your fault. Baka oras na talaga niya..."

she wiped her tears away and then stood up slightly smiling at me "uwi na muna ako." paalam nito

I just let her go and have time for herself. Bumuntonghininga ako saka tinignan ang relo ko. Tumayo na rin ako dala ang tubig ko saka pumunta sa doctor's quarter at naabutan roon si Justale na umiinom ng sa tingin ko ay iced coffee habang nagse-cellphone.

"Doc, sino yung sinasabi mo kanina?" kaswal kong tanong rito habang kinukuha ang bouquet at totebag

Narinig ko itong nabulunan at tumingin sa gawi ko "Secret." sabi naman nito at ibinalik na ang tingin sa cellphone

hindi na ako kumibo at akmang lalabas na ako ng pinto nang mag-salita ako. 

"Ingatan mo yan." banta ko rito saka lumabas dahil tapos na ang shift ko