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"Why was that room full of paintings of me?" I stilled at his question. I felt sweat run through my forehead even though the aircondition inside his car is great.

I swallowed the thick lump in my throat and answered him with a hoarse voice. "That was... um... my" I am havbing troubles spitting those words out! "My therapy." I looked down on my fingers and played it

"Therapy?" I whispered

I huffed a humungous breath "Nang mawala ka Coelth, I tried to keep myself be my self."

he remained silent while I continued "Yung araw na hindi ka dumating muntikan ko nang maibagsak lahat... buti nalang ay pumasa pa rin ako. I thought after New Year I would be back to my old self. I was wrong." mapait kong sambit

"Every single night I would cry and question my worth. Every time I lay on my bed and staring at the fucking ceiling regrets would visit me. Pagsisisi na hindi ko nasabi ang nararamdaman ko para sayo. Imbes na mag-aral ay iniiyakan kita at kinahahabagan ang sarili" I lifted my eyes onto the window and stared

"No one knew about anything except for kuya. Nobody knew about it even my friends and parents." I shifted my gaze to him and I saw how his jaw tightened up and so as his hands on the wheel "Until one day mom and dad came to see me. Kuya told them everything he knows. Sa sobrang pag-aalala nila they made me meet a psychiatrist to cope up."

"They told me to forget you to the point that they made me remove all my social media accounts, delete photos and more." I sniffed and looked up holding the tears "Art was the only therapy that helped me." I smiled

"Even though I have deleted our photos. My heart and mind still remembers every detail of you. From the grins, laughs and even tears." I licked my upper lip

"I myself wanted to forget you not because they told me so but because I no longer want the pain but my heart and mind only beats and thinks of you."

"Sorry..." I could hear regrets and sadness in his voice

I feel like he pitied me.

"I never knew that it would come to a point like that..." he bit his lip "It was never my intention not to show up in the first place its just that..." a tear escaped his eyes "Mom was brought to the hospital that day." My eyes bulged up when I he revealed that to me

"I was so fucked up. Mom was there lying unconsious and I didn't know what to do." he slowed the car down

I scratched my nose and looked at his eyes "Why didn't you tell me?" Nagtatampong ani ko

"Gulong-gulo na ako noon Sei..." His voice cracked which broke a part of my heart when he is pleading for understanding from me

Nanahimik ako saglit at tinignan siya. Nagpakawala ako ng isang malalim na buntonghininga. "How is she?"

Ngumiti ito na tila ba nabunutan ng tinik ngunit hindi umabot sa kanyang mga mata. "She's fine."

Ngumiti nalang ako at tumahimik. Walang kahit isang salitang namutawi sa amin hanggang sa magsalita ito

"She had a heart attack." He sighed "I was at my penthouse getting reading when my phone rang and Manang Norma was on the other line. Mama was on the cold floor when she found her so she was hurriedly sent to the hospital." He gulped hard "I left all my things and went straight to her. She was still unconcious when I left her for school. Alam ko naman kasi na pagagalitan niya ako pag nalaman niyang hindi ako pumasok sa araw ng test."

He sniffed "And I was almost late." He smiled bitterly. I do remember Liedin saying that he was almost late for the test"

"Bakit ka naman lumipat?" I asked him

"Because of dad. He was the reason why mom had a heart attack." His grip tightened "They were on the phone and dad wanted me back."

"I never wanted to move in with him in the States but mom wished me to." He grinned with sarcasm

"I can never say no to the mom. I was a lowkey mama's boy." He chuckled at his last word.

"So you left her?" I asked him

He looked at me like I said something funny but it was like he was mocking me "Here's your stop." Hindi ko namalayan na nasa tapat na kami ng Tower.

"Uh you wanna stay over?" I asked him

"Nah. May dadaanan pa ako. Have a goodnight." He leaned in and kissed my forehead

I opened his car door. Nang makababa ako ay pinanood ko ang paglayo ng kanyang sasakyan bago tulirong pumasok sa gusali