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"When did I left?" kahit anong pigil ko sa sarili ay lumabas pa rin sa aking bibig ang kanina'y iniisip lang na mga kataga.

Maang naman itong napatingin sa akin. Kita sa mga mata ang gulo sa isipan kaya napagpasyahan kong ulitin ang sinabi.

"I never left, so what are you saying about making me stay?" medyo emosyonal kong saad. Ang gulo sa mata ay napawi at nabahiran na ng gulat.

"At first, I was just up for knowing the reasons but something inside me asked." I paused to breathe

"It asked me 'bakit mo pa hahanapin yung sagot mo sa bakit kung nakaraan at tapos na yan?' 'If that was a chapter meant to be forgotten why the heck let him explain when you should just go ahead.'" I watched his reaction but he was still fazed

"Sa paulit-ulit na tanong na yon nakahanap ako ng isang palusot. For peace of mind." natawa ako ng bahagya sa huli ng sinabi at siya naman ay tuluyan nang nakabawi sa gulat

"these past few days made me realize that it's not really giving me the peace of mind I think I wanted but it's reviving my love that's in coma." His eyes never left mine but I had to look away to quickly wipe the tears forming in my eyes.

"Then, I finally admitted to myself" I sniffed "I can love you again even without the answers to my whys but I still wanna know so I can no longer go wrong. So I won't make the same mistake again. So you won't leave me again" I smiled faintly when his hand reavhed for my cheek and wiped the tear that escaped my eye.

Binaba niya ang kanyang kamay saka maayos na hinawakan ang gitara at hindi na napigilan pa ang nakakalokong ngiti sa labi.

"I was not singing that for you you know." he playfully rolled his eyes on me

Confused I knitted my brows into a thick line which made his smile wider.

"I was imagining my parents singing onto that but if it was the only thing that could make you confess to me I think I should've sang that from day one." he lightly chuckled before continuing. "But are you saying you want it too?" A glint of hope was seen on his perfect set of eyes

Tears now gone I smiled widely at him and then gave a knowing smirk. Hinawakan ko ang baba ko at saka tumingala na tila ba nag-iisip. "Hmm... Do I want it too?" Saka ko siya muling sinulyapan may bahid ng pagka-irita sa mukha

Tuluyan nang bumulanghit ang aking tawa nang makita ang tila ba batang nagmamaktol sa mukha niya.

"Walang nakakatawa." muli itong umirap saka hinarap na muli ang gitara. Tanging himig ng gitara ang bumalot sa aming dalawa. Dala ng katahimikan pinagala kong muli ang aking mga mata sa secret garden na ito nang biglang may ideyang sumulpot sa aking utak.

"Do you have any sharp thing?" Tanong ko sa kanya sa gitna ng kanyang pagkalabit sa mga hibla ng instrumento.

Unti-unting bumagal ang kanyang pagmamanipula sa gitara at saka ako dahan-dahang tinignan "For?" Kunot-noo nitong tanong sa akin

Patuya ko siyang inirapan saka humalukipkip "Just answer."

Nakita ko ang pag-ngiwi nito saka tayo "May mga kutsilyo ata sa shack." Anito bago binaba ang gitara at tumulak papunta sa maliit na shack.

Binaling ko ang tingin sa kulay kremang gitara. Unti-unti kong inabot iyon saka nilagay sa aking mga bisig. Piansadahan ko iyon ng tingin at nakita ang magandang pagkakagawa nito sa likod ay mayroong naka-ukit sa ilalim na bahagi.

"Cantaré para ti hasta siempre" mahinang bigkas ko.

sinimulan ko nang kalabitin ang mga string nito dahil sa kakulangan ng kaalaman sa lenggwaheng Espanyol.

Nang mahanap ang mga pamilyar na tugtugin ay sinimulan ko na ang munting pagkanta. "Leaves will soon grow..."

Coelth, I hope you can fully forgive your dad and yourself. Enough blaming yourself it is time for you to be free from the pain. And I will be with you going through that pain. My mind whispered as I closed my eyes

this place's peace and tranquility made me realize a lot and made me come to my conclusion.

"So you know how to play?" A voice disturbed my train of thoughts

Ngumiti ako nang hindi dumidilat saka marahang tinigil ang pagkalabit

minulat ko ang aking mga mata at hinarap siya

"Let's carve our names." Binalewala ko ang kanyang tanong

Bahagyang dumaan ang gulat at pagtataka sa kanyang guwapong mukha. "why would you want to do that?"

I shrugged my shoulder and smiled sheepishly and thought of what would be his reaction on the next thing I am about to say.

"Screw your  free trial. Let's make it official, I'm subscribing." I slowly put the guitar on the side and stood up to see his flustered face. I immediately grabbed the small black bag containing knives