Broken - Reader x Kurt Wagner - an X-men fanfiction

10 Revelation

(Y/n)'s smile faded slowly as she replaced it with a fake one, nodding her head in silence. She knew that she couldn't train with other students. She just needed to perfect her screaming then she could end it all. Hank excused Kurt and (Y/n) and they walked back to her room.

"It was really interesting to see you scream with such power. Did it feel good?"

(Y/n) nodded and Kurt cleared his throat; the silence they receded into became awkward and uncomfortable. Kurt could tell something was wrong, but because she was avoiding his questions before, he decided not even to try for now. When they got to (Y/n)'s room, Kurt closed the door and sat next to (Y/n) on her bed, trying to make eye contact.

"Okay, listen. I can tell something is wrong and no matter how hard you deny it, you won't change my mind. If you won't tell me, then fine, but tell someone because I can tell it's eating you up inside."

"Kurt, you don't understand..."

"Then tell me. Help me help you. I need to know..."

"No... no you don't. You don't need to worry about me anymore."

Kurt tilted his head to the side, confused and worried over what (Y/n) just said. He shook his head and hugged her tightly.

"I love you with all my heart and I hate seeing you like this. Please tell me what's wrong."

(Y/n) sighed and hugged Kurt back. When they pulled away, both of their eyes were filled with tears. They shared a passionate kiss before teleporting to the forest to relax.

"Kurt, I can't tell you everything; almost nothing in fact. What I can tell you is that I've made a decision and I need to see it through. My mind has never led me astray... even though I have doubts about this time."

"What kind of decision?"

"I can't tell you."

"Tell me what you can."

"I did. I've made a decision and I need to see it through."

Kurt sighed and stood up, (Y/n) standing with him. She rushed to hug him and he pushed her away. Instantly, her eyes started to water.

"I love you, mein Engel, but I can't accept this. I need you to tell me more. We tell each other everything. We trust each other... or I thought we did."

"Kurt... please... you have to underst-"

"No, I need to know what you are going to do to yourself. You won't tell me and that hurts a lot. I thought you trusted me."

"I do trust you. But, you have to understand-"

"If your reasoning is that I'll try to stop you, then I probably will. I won't lie. But, even if that's the case, I still want to know."

(Y/n) opened her mouth to speak, but no sound came out. She simply shook her head and rubbed her arm. Kurt sighed again and started walking towards the lake. At first, (Y/n) was stuck frozen, wanting to run, scream, and cry all at once. She wanted to let all of her pent up emotions free. But she knew that if she screamed, she would hurt Kurt so she continued to bottle up her emotions. The stress of all these feelings was making the instability of her mind worse and she started to spiral down again. She dropped to her knees, clutching her arms, and digging her nails into them. She sat and sobbed for what felt like forever, but couldn't have been more than a few minutes. She stood slowly, releasing her arms and retracting her nails, as she did so a few droplets of blood stained the tips of her nails and the skin around the fresh new wounds. She shook her head and took some deep breaths, walking towards the lake.

As she emerged from the forest, she saw Kurt, sitting on the grass, tail wrapped around him, and crying. She hesitated, but walked over and sat down next to him, looking out over the water and watching the sunset as the last of her tears dried. Kurt looked up and wiped his eyes, moving his tail to wrap around (Y/n), pulling her closer to him. She happily gave in to his wishes, wrapping her arms around him and pulling him closer. After a few moments, she pulled back and he looked up at her. They said nothing, but a million words passed back and forth between them; just gazing into each other's eyes. They shared a passionate and hungry kiss before they had to pull away for breath. (Y/n) cupped Kurt's chin and pulled him back for another, a little hungrier and a little longer before they pulled away for breath once more.