YOU

CHAPTER 42

ᴸᵒⁿᵍ ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ ᵃʰᵉᵃᵈ

Sungjae shuts the door locking himself inside his room and he sits at the edge of the bed leaning both of his elbows down to his knees, running both of his hand to his face. it hurt the fact that he couldn't handle himself being with her, it hurt the fact that she made it clear to him that she didn't want him. It hurt that he couldn't ask her, he couldn't blame her, he was as much as a cheater as her. He did cheat on her too, Sami is that one good reason that he cheated on her, sadly he thought, if he could turn back the time, he would still choose the same path. He never wanted to regret having Sami and losing Joy in his life. Though Joy has been that one thing that he wanted to have but he would never risk losing Sami.

He laid down in his bed, not knowing what to do anymore, the woman of his life has come back to haunt him. She's there, yet she seems so far. He covers his face trying to recollect himself, it hurt him so much that he couldn't even talk to her. it was about 9 pm when Sungjae woke up suddenly, he realizes something

"shit!" he muttered to himself remembering that Joy hasn't even had her dinner yet. Would he feed her? he doesn't want to show her that he cares? and what? why do I care? he thought to himself, throwing one of the pillows away.

"arggg!" he groans sitting up from his bed. So he decided to go to the kitchen and pretend to cook food for himself... as he opens the door of his room, he peeks slowly and heads to the kitchen. When he reaches for the kitchen, he made it sure that he had a rough stern expression in his face in a deadpan manner, but he doesn't, the emotions were still showing even a child could say that he was excited, he started cooking not even bothering turning his head to the living, after placing everything in the table, he puts the food neatly into a bowl he glances to the living room, he frowns realizing she was not there the whole time? he sighs 

"she's so stubborn!" he muttered to himself as he walks to Sami's room but she's not there either, did she leave? he thought in panic, loneliness squirming inside his gut, he doesn't want her gone, he reaches out the front door praying that she would still be there when he opens the door, he found her there sitting down hugging both of her knees to herself... tears visible to her face.. he didn't want to be affected but the sight felt like hell to him.. he was also hurting he just didn't want to admit it. he sighs approaching near her

"look, please get inside..."

"why do you care?"

"I don't... it's just you're here because of me." Joy glared at him standing up from her place dusting off the invisible dirt away from her clothes... Sungjae didn't talk but he watches her silently, his inside was squirming with excitement, he still hasn't calm from the event earlier. He can't stop staring at her curves and breast seems to have become bigger, she looks so soft and fragile.

"what?"Joy glares at the latter which didn't respond but let her in instead.

"you can sleep in Sami's room" ~ "I'll sleep in the couch," both of them said it simultaneously and stops

"no I'll-" ~ "it-" both of them talk again at the same time cutting what the other was saying

"No! you go first" he uttered letting her talk first

"I said I'll sleep on the couch if that's ok with you."

"no. I.. I mean. fine!" he uttered defeated, not knowing what to say. It was not okay for her to sleep on the couch, he wanted her to be comfortable in a bed, his bed... He wished! he shakes his head, for all the dirty thoughts that he wanted to do to her. After he went back to the kitchen, contemplating whether to invite her to dinner or bring her the food instead... he stares across the room seeing her arranging the count for her to sleep, he shakes his head. he sighs she's too stubborn. he wanted to leave the food in the table near the couch but she was trying her best not to look at his direction, the smell of the food makes her stomach growl, she was so hungry she didn't even have her snack in the afternoon, Sungjae sighs again in defeat, he just couldn't leave her like that.