insecure || Changlix

thirteen

Felix was walking to class with hood pulled down the next day. He was somehow nervous because of something he had done yesterday, with Chan's request. Yesterday he was totally euphoric when the latter explained him his idea. But now he was a bit afraid of people's reaction.

He saw his two friends already sitting in class and joined them.

"Morning.", Jisung mumbled sleepily and laid his back down on the table again.

"Didn't you had enough sleep?", Felix questioned and placed his backpack down next to him, while taking out his books and watching as more people came into the classroom with the time and filled the classroom.

"Not really." Jisung stated and rubbed his eyes. "I was phoning with someone the whole night."

Just as he said that, Minho came through the door, smiling at Jisung shyly, who blushed and returned the smile, while watching him as he sat down.

"Don't stare, you're making it too obvious.", Felix whispered, as he watched Jisungs sparkling eyes as he watched the other male. He was really head over heals. "Just ask him out, already."

Jisung ignored his friends remark. "What's up with you and your hood this morning? You never have it up."

He reached for his hood to pull it down and Felix couldn't stop him, but he had to reveal his new hair later or earlier anyways .

After Jisung pulled the hood down and revealed a blonde haired Felix he gasped loudly, making the other worried for a second. Maybe the idea wasn't so good after all?
But Jisungs words calmed him down. "Wow. You're looking so amazing in blonde hair. I'' really gay."

Felix just laughed at him for the last part. Seungmin also catched his attention. "Not bad."
Felix smiled now, so it really was the right decision.

"How came you dyed your hair?", Jisung asked interested and tilted his head, while propping it on his hand. 

"I just needed a change." Felix shrugged "Chan said that blonde would probably look the best."

Chan explained to him yesterday that he maybe just needed a bit change in his experience to get more confidence. If he would look difference, he would see himself in another way and as another person and that would give him the chance to see this person as someone lovable and worthy.

He went for blonde in the end because he thought that it would match with his eyes and because they could match with their hair colors.

"Yeah, I like it but who is Chan?" Seungmin asked interested.
"Isn't he friends with Minho?", Jisung asked, being sure that he heared the name from the other before multiple times.

"Yes, he's one of the guys who's always sitting with them in the cafeteria."

"And how come that you know each other?"

"We met the day after... uhm.. the party when I went back in to look for my phone and it came out that he's also Australian."

The other two nodded at the new information and the lesson started short after.

Felix noticed how Changbins seat was empty all the time and he also wasn't present during lunch. He was honestly beginning to get relieved, but in the last lesson he suddenly appeared and walked wordless to his seat.

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"Aren't you gonna walk with us?", Seungmin questioned as Felix suddenly stopped walking when they reached the school exit.

For some reason he was afraid to tell them the truth because he knew that they would probably forbid him to meet the person he was going to meet or would've been worried all the time, but he didn't want them to have to worry about him.