insecure || Changlix

fifteen

"Then don't hurt him, hurt me."

"Why are you saying this?", Changbin asked in disbelief.

The other just sighed sadly. "I don't want anyone else to suffer, so if you have the feeling to hurt someone, hurt me instead. If I can protect someone this way, then I'll be fine."
Felix forced a soft smile on his lips, as to prove that he meant his words.

But the other just stared at him when he realized he was being serious. This boy was so special, he couldn't believe that he would really let himself getting hurt to protect someone who just threatened to kill him. He didn't even believe that angels like that would possibly exist.

"Are you angry right now because of him? Do you feel stressed? Do you want to hurt him?"
Felix questioned with pressure. Why am I doing this? Am I insane?

Changbin still looked at him with wide eyes but answered, just to see what would happen. "Yes"

"How angry are you?"

"I could kill him..." he mumbled and build fists again by just imagining his face in front of him.

"Okay, then relieve your anger at me. At least if you promise to not hurt him then"
Felix just looked him into the eyes, ready to catch his fists with his face.

Changbin backed away with an concerned look. "You don't even know what you're saying. I'm not gonna hurt you."

"Do it." Felix pressured. It was somehow ironically how he was afraid that he could hit him and now he was begging him to do so. His protection for other people was maybe going too far, but truthfully said : He still loved a stranger more than himself so he would take that pain.

"No, you're being insane. Why should I do that?"

"Just. Relieve your stress. Please. Do something against your anger!"

Felix was walking closer to him, totally determined. "Please, just do it."

Changbin was somehow a bit scared, the others behavior was creepy. But on the other side he was really angry, to the extent that he would really wanting to kill Bambam. Because he made him do things he didn't want and because he knew that he had things against him that could ruin him, if they would go viral.

He was looking at the blonde boy for a second before the other spoke again. "Do it! Relieve your stress."

What happened next was the most unexpected thing, that Felix saw happening.

Changbin grabbed onto his shoulders and pushed him against the wall of the room, beside his window. Felix was shutting his eyes close to prepare himself for the punch.

But there was no punch.

Instead the other aggressively slammed his lips onto the others with no hesitation. Felix opened his eyes in shock, realizing as to what was happening. When he talked about releasing his anger that wasn't what he was thinking about.

But on the other hand he got himself into this

Felix was frozen, but that didn't stop the other to move his lips against the others constantly. Felix just stood there with widened eyes and shaky hands. What was just happening? He tried to pull away but the grip didn't loosen a bit. So he just 'went with the flow'.

He didn't even know why he kissed him back, it was probably just in the heat of the moment. And because of something different.

He could feel electricity rushing through his veins at the contact. He was feeling completely drunken and if he was going to black out if he wouldn't kiss him back. Like he was just so desperately for someone to kiss him. Like he needed this feeling.