insecure || Changlix

twenty-one

Felix nervously sat in Changbin's room. On his bed to be precise.

Chan had taken him to his (and with that also Minho's,Hyunjin's and Changbin's) house after school and they talked for a bit and then he went into Changbin's room since the other claimed that they still worked on this art project together.

So now he was sitting there, not really knowing what to expect once again and now that he knew about the murder, he was even more tense than normal. He knew he wouldn't do anything but what if?

But how could he be so calm sitting on a bed of a murderer? It's not like he trusts Changbin or even likes him. But maybe, he cares for him.
And wants to truly know what's going on inside him.

Suddenly the door crashed open and Changbin stormed in, stopping in his tracks at the sight of the familiar looking boy on his bed.

"Uhm...Chan let me in." he stuttered and watched as the other closed the door behind him without one tone and dropped his school stuff on the floor.

After that he turned to Felix and sat down on the bed facing Felix but this time there was for sure enough space between them.

There was still this unreadable expression on his face, even though Felix' thought that it would be different today for some reasons.
He thought maybe he would be remembered at what he did and feel guilty or sad or different because he was about to tell Felix. But he seemed to be wrong.

"Why do you even need to know?"

"Huh?" Felix opened his eyes wide and starred at him. The others expression didn't change a bit.

"What happened. Why do you need to know?" he repeated with his stern voice, dark eyes, darker than usual.

"Because I want to be able to trust you but that's not possible if I don't know this. Plus I want to understand you better." Felix sighed and scratched his neck nervously at his confession. Tension rising within him.

As Changbin supported himself slightly on his fists to lean more towards the freckled boy, the latter didn't back away and held eye contact, determined to find out the truth.

"Fine." the elder stated with a firm voice and added something more before sitting upright again. "but if you tell anyone then-"

"Then what?" felix asked challengingly and pulled his wrists back forwards to him.

Their faces again just a few inches apart.

But Changbin didn't respond but pulled his wrists silently back and tilted his head confused with a raised eyebrow.
"I don't get you Lee Felix."

"Well I don't get you either Seo Changbin."
Felix stated immediately back boosted with confidence but only heard the elder erupting in soft chuckles that honestly run comfortable shivers down his whole spine.

"You know...one moment you act all confident and challenging. The other moment you're scared and frightened and think I might hurt you." felix just shrugged his shoulders at this statement because it was true. And he didn't understood it either, maybe it was just his personality. At least that would be the easiest answer and the one he could deal best with.

"But do you know what's the most surprising?
You even k-" Changbin began speaking and leaning dangerously close to Felix again.
One hand was coming up to hold onto his shoulders and the other hand went up to cup his face but Felix immediately backed away, hitting his back on the wall but he didn't mind.

"STOP!" he screamed and changbin had to signalize him to shut it down. "You're just distracting from the actual topic. Just tell me before I don't care about it anymore."