insecure || Changlix

nineteen

"FELIX WE ARE YOUR FRIENDS! WE DESERVE SOME FRICKETY ANSWERS!"

"Don't yell in my ear, Jisung, please."

"He's right tho, come on. Tell us how did that happen?"

"How did what happen?"

Felix currently sat on his bed and FaceTimed his two friends, which followed their promise to interrogate their friend as soon as possible.

And Felix already hated it more than anything. He just made this two amazing new friends that actually cared for him but he was forced to lie to them. He just couldn't bring himself to tell the truth. They wouldn't understand him because he didn't even understood what he was doing himself. He didn't even understood this whole deal at all anyways.

"Don't play dumb. You could've told us earlier that your in a relationship with Chan."
Seungmin remarked and shook his head followed by a small grin.

"I-... Ehm.... I was scared what you would think a-about me..." Felix stumbled while hiding his head half under the covers, so that the others couldn't see his red face. Because it would immediately expose his lies.

"But you can trust us Lix!" Jisung exclaimed loudly and almost threw his phone at the bottom because he was a little too enthusiastic.
"How did you even get to know Chan? We want the whole story, every detail"

"The connection isn't good you know!"
Lee felix you genius, you always know what to say...
He almost facepalmed himself the more he thought about how dumb he acted.

"I thought we're friends" Jisung began whining and starred into the camera with big shiny eyes and a baby pout on his squirrel like face. "I also told you about Minho..."

The older boy added the last part with a little growl and just hoped that no one would mention it anyways, bevor was still a sensitive topic for him. But Seungmin doesn't let himself steal a chance to tease his best friend about the smallest things.
"I say Lix tells us his story and then you tell us your minho love thingy" the youngest grinned shamelessly into the camera.

Now they both went quiet and waited for their Australian friend who just stuck his head out of his safe place under the covers.

He felt how adrenaline was rushing through his body and sweat began forming everywhere on his body, it was almost as bad at his first day at the new school. But this time he actually felt guilty.

The only good thing was that a person would assume that the boys nervous state was caused out of pure embarrassment and not because he was a miserable liar.

But he just had to talk about how he met Chan right? So he didn't even need to lie at all.
He simply didn't need to mention that no one of them ever confessed or even felt more than just platonic love to each other.
At least he was convinced of the last point.

"We met at the party actually. I left my phone and that was when I went back into the house and Chan opened the door. And after that we met at the park and talked all the time about personal things. And also ended up dying our hair blonde." he began rambling on and on and just hoped that they would stop questioning for gods sake.

"Why do I feel like something is fishy in here?"Seungmin raised his brow and stared at Felix through the screen. "I mean you two got together this quick?"

"Uhm...Y-yeah? I mean-" Felix began stuttering and felt immediately screwed. He was just so bad at this all. Like his life in general tho. Why can't there be something like a test before you're going to be born. Something like: "Do I even have the ability to actually live?" Because he was convinced he would have got a straight F.