Dear diary

Talking helps.

" Okay so class welcome the cast and crew of ' into the moolight' put your hands together for: Brooke Lewis and Josh Miller who will be the protagonists of this play along with Sasha and Miles as their understudy and Darby, Hannah and Wilson. Thank you for the ones who tried out. We will have our first run next Tuesday, 3pm sharp my office." She announced on the speaker

" Congratulations" everyone said.

" Ow watch where you're going! " that girl wearing a hat that covered her face kinda shouted at me and then looked at me and paused for a minute.

" Oh well well well, if it isn't the lady who stole my part and I became the understudy. Ugh for a newbie you're okay but I was better than okay I was--"

" Enough, don't pay attention to her she is just a big drama queen." Josh interrupted pulling me out of the crowd. " So now that we know each other and clearly you aren't someone who judges someone from first impressions, what say about dinner sometime?"

" Um sure. I mean we can run lines and hangout...yeah, totally! " I said patting him and heading to class.

...

" Shane don't you understand how important this is? I'm the one who is trying to hold eveything together and all you wanna do is just have fun. It's time to be serious." I said.

" Hey! Are you saying no for a picnic! I can't even." He said as he left the room.

" Our food's here" I said as I keep the script away.

He came back and in and sat infront of me and tried to hold my hand.

Why is he doing this? I thought we were done rehearsing.

" I'm sorry Josh, I am kinda figuring it out" I said kinda pulling my hand.

" Why did you say yes to date?"

" This is a date? I just thought we were gonna run lines and eat."

" Oh...okay" he sighed.

" No no I am so sorry, I feel awful. I didn't know. I just thought we were  hanging out, like friends. I have too much going on. I need to sort it out."

" It's fine, don't feel bad. So um are you in a relationship?"

" It's complicated."

I feel so bad doing this to Josh, I've been getting to know him since the cast list was posted and he is a pretty interesting guy!

" If you want to talk, I'm here."  He said.

" Okay, let's get back to the lines for now" I said sipping my milkshake.

....

" It's just after the whole breakup thing with Ace, it's just been hard. I don't get what the deal with Dave is." I said sipping on some coffee as we walked down the street. " And even when I'm a perfectly good person to him, he has to be a jerk!"

" He's better once you get to know him"

" Yeah, I guess everyone is." I sighed.

" Don't worry Madeline. It's gonna be okay and you're always gonna your Shane" he said giving me a warm smile.

" You're lucky you are sweet otherwise with that phone thing, we would never talked and you were right talking does help. " I snorted.

" Wow, did you just snort?" He laughed.

" Hey!" I said hitting on his hand.

" It's so crazy to think that I'm here. I never thought I'd like it here." I said in amazement.

" So you like it huh?"

" Pretty much, I don't have my best friend here with me, but you guys are great! I've made so many friends and that too that quickly." I chuckled as he smiled.

" Hey Brooke? " He asked. " I'm sorry for asking you out, it was just casual."

" It's okay, no problem! You sure make a girl feel special. " I said and smiled.

" Okay, thanks."

" That's me." I said pointing at my house.

" Nice, uh see you in practice." He said as we waved goodbye and I got inside the house.

I meant it, it's crazy to think that I came here like a few months ago and yet I have a whole sorta friend group now, something I never had in Virginia.

It's weird, not having Aliya around but I think I'm getting used to it, we do our weekly video calls, and texts like 24/7 but it's still a little weird. She has been here twice already!

About Ace.... do I have to think about it though? I'm trying my best not to think about it... but it's hard.