Dear diary

A what?!

" Hey, mom? I am leaving for the airpor--" I said on the phone.

" Hello?" a male voice answered.

Its not grandpa's voice.

" Oh, um I'm sorry uh, I was trying to reach Denise. I think I got the wrong number " I said looking at who I called.

" No, you got it right, Brooke, this is Todd. I've heard so much about you." He said as I froze.

" Wait, uh, what?"

" Denise's in the shower, can I take a message? Hello? Hello?" He said from the other side of the phone as I kept my phone on my lap in disbelief.

Who's Todd?

Why did he have my mom's phone?

Why is he in the house... with mom?

Mom and dad haven't even legally separated and mom has a new....boyfriend?

I sat there.

Thinking about nothing.

Why was she was even calling me there?

To show her boyfriend off?

I sat on the outside of my house....trying so hard not to cry. I was mad! Furious!

Dad's miserable, I am miserable, Ava is too and my mom's already got a boyfriend?

I can't believe her! How could she do that to us?! Especially with Ava over there.

This is all my fault... if I wouldn't have done what I did to Chad... then he would be here, mom and dad would be here and we'd all be happy and a family.

I did this. I caused this but mom's got a what?! God. I can't believe her! Urgh!

....

"What are you doing here? I thought you'd be in a plane by now."

" Yeah, me too....um it's nothing I'm gonna stay...and help you." I gulped.

" Are you sure you're okay? You...look a little down."

" No, it's all good" I faked a smile." Let's um..get to work" I said as I clapped my hands together.

" Okay so....we're going to start with the dance routine so Sasha, Spence, Noah and Darby stay right here and Hayden you should go practice you lines with Rachel and Dave." I said rolling my eyes at Noah.

So...yeah...I told him last night about him not getting the part...and he was mad... really very mad.

" Dude, why do we learn this part?!" Noah asked giving me a look.

" Because you're the understudy you should at least know the steps incase Spence can't make it...right?" I scoffed.

" Whatever." He said rolling his eyes.

" Okay" I loudly said rolling my eyes " So Spence and Sasha come in the front and then you go walk walk...come up and then--" I said while doing the actions.

" Umm Brooke, look, I get that you and Josh are like arranging the play or whatever but I guess we should start with the lines...I mean after all I am THE Sasha!" She said tossing her hair.

" Seriously? Look, you start with the hard stuff and get to the easy because it takes time learning the dances. So just do what I tell you to."

...

" Do you have to go so slow, right now?" Sasha asked irritated.

" Oh really? Well it's not my fault I have to work with bad dancers, you really want me to go faster? Why don't you show me the routine I just taught you." I said as she just looked down. " That's what I thought!" I said storming off.

" Brooke... you're crying because she said something?"

" No Josh obviously not, I am not a baby just...go away." I sniffled covering my face.

" I am not going anywhere until you tell me what's wrong. You have been looking down ever since you got here and you're getting so mad so quick." He said giving me water and sitting next to me, rubbing on my back.

" It's nothing" I wipe my tears and look the other way.

" Okay, don't tell me if you don't want to but--" he stopped as he heard my phone ring as he removed it from my bag." It's your mom " he says looking at me with hope that I'll answer.

" Just let it ring." I sniffled.

" Are you sure, you're okay? " He looked so worried.

" Yes, Josh!" I said loudly. " Why does everyone keep asking me that?! Ever since Chad died. It's frustrating now."

" I-i-i am sorry." He said just about to go inside.

" My mom has a boyfriend!" I yelled covering my face.

" Oh..." he said looking at me. "

" How could she do this to me?! It's my fault! I did--" I cried.

" Brooke--- I don't understand. What did you do?"

" I can't---I want to feel better but the pain just doesn't go away..." I cried.

" I really have no clue how that feels like but I get it."

" No offense, but I'm not sure you do"

" Let me guess? You're mad at everyone and everything because just when you're getting used to things changing, they change again."

" Maybe..." I sighed.

" Brooke if you haven't noticed...my family, it's just me, my mom and Rooney."

" I-i-i had no idea, I am so sorry..."

" It's okay, most people don't know...umm he left us when I was 10 years old...and like that wasn't bad enough, he got his girlfriend to Thanksgiving dinner a few years ago...it was super awkward" he laughed. " But it's okay...I know the things he said to mom so all he leaving has really done is bring my mom and I closer...he wasn't really a great person but we still see each other some times...not from the past 4 years but something like that" he smiled rubbing his knee. " And I know that this isn't as close as losing your brother but I tried" he smiled as I rested my head on his shoulder.

" I am so sorry...yeah, thank you for always making me feel better no matter what, it's like you are my bo--"

" Brooke?" Noah said peeping his head into the room.

" Noah!" I quickly wiped my tears and sat up straight.

" What's going on here?" He put on a face.

" Nothing " I took a deep breath. " We were just discussing the choreo yeah?!" I said turning towards Josh.

" Yeah, yup." He smiled.

" Brooke I am really sorry for acting like a jerk...you weren't supposed to be biased and if that meant not giving me the lead then" he took a deep breath. " It's okay coz you know what's the best because you are the best" he smiled kissing me on my cheek.

" Yup, that's me" I took a deep breath as I exited the room.

" You, you stay away from my girl!" Noah angrily said to Josh pushing him away.

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Hey guys!
First of all I'm so sorry I haven't been publishing regularly, I had a lot going on so wasn't able to write a lot and now I have my exams again this month but don't worry I'm gonna try and update as much as I can till then!
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