Hermitcraft angst and :(

The Void

Hi Y'all! This is honestly really fun for me. Idk why. I know I shouldnt be caring about numbers, but could you maybe share this book with your friends *insert puppy eyes emoji*. Hope you Enjoy! (warning: Sadness and bad thoughts, self harm ect.)

One morning, Xisuma woke up with a question. What exactly was the Void? X had a lot of meetings that day so he quickly got dressed and headed out the door. He met up with Cub and Scar to play some mini games, but his mind was wandering the whole time. He found himself muttering the words they said back to himself after they spoke. "X, you okay?" Asked Scar, "You seem like you have something on your mind." "Hmm?" Xisuma exclaimed as he looked up. "Yeah, Yeah. I'm good. Let's just keep playing." The truth was, Xisuma was not "Good".

Whenever hermits were in the end, they described it as soulless or empty. Whenever X was in the end, he felt like he belonged there. That he was soulless and empty too. He felt that the soullessness was his soul.

What exactly is the Void? Xisuma had his legs dangling off the edge of the main island, staring into nothingness. Why doesn't he find out for himself what the void was? The only thing he could lose was his life. And it's not like anyone would care.

Xisuma stood up and walked back from the edge. Every part of his brain told him that this was a terrible idea, but his body longed to feel the emptiness. The emptiness could fill the gap inside him, complete him. He could be completely empty.

Now, he was at least two chunks away from the edge. As he started sprinting, he heard distant Swedish yelling. "Yes, Mumbo. That is- X! What are you doing!" Iskall's cries rang through the emptiness. Xisuma started to run faster and wiped tears from his eyes. This would answer his question and end his suffering. He thought back to the events of the past month.

"Okay, X. I have run your answers through the test. This will help me see what is happening in your brain." Doc said matter-of-factly. X had just had a mental test, as that's what the hermits did occasionally. A mental evaluation. Him and Doc both suspected that nothing was wrong, as that's how these test. Still, X fidgeted nervously in his seat. "Okay, Mr. XisumaVoid. It says here that you-" Doc stopped his sentence suddenly. X's heart seemed to stop. "What? Tell me!" X whispered harshly. "XisumaVoid, I am diagnosing you with Schizophrenia. Psychosis, X." Xisuma's heart dropped. He was insane.

That night, X borrowed a dictionary from Joe and looked up the definition of the word insanity.

Insanity

In-san-i-ty

Noun

Being subject to uncontrollable, impulsive behaviour.

No.

The following days, Xisuma didn't leave his house. He stayed home, swimming in his own thoughts. An insane admin. He will hurt his server members. He can't be trusted to protect them.

Ever since that moment, he was trying to find a good enough reason to just end it all.

The Void was his reason.

He heard Iskall grab rockets and put on elytra behind him, but he kept running. The edge was coming soon and Xisuma was not going to stop.

"X! Stop!" Iskall shouted as he got a running start to take off. He flew as fast as he could, but he didn't make it.

X felt his foot push off of the very edge of the island. And he fell into the void.

Emptiness.

Hehehe. its a cliff hanger. Please tell me if you want a part 2!

-the Lolfoxgamer