Amajiki and bunny

The Stars

We joined the boys again who were both deep in conversation.
Amajiki blushed a little when we sat back down, did Mirio say something to him about me!?
"erm, are we still revising tonight?" Amajiki asked.
Oh, with everything that just happened Id actually forgotten about that, I'm not too sure if it was a good idea at the moment.
"I-I'm not sure, I still don't feel well" I looked away.
"o-oh, yeah, maybe tomorrow?" he asked, why did he still want to? Wouldn't it be better to do it with Kimi and then he could get to know her better too?.
I nodded, I just wanted at least one day to try and calm down a little.
The rest of the day was like a blur and I went straight to my room after class.
I didn't eat dinner as I was still feeling a little sick.

At 10pm I finally got a little hungry, I knew no one would be up in the kitchen at this time so I went downstairs to get a small snack.
I looked out the window as I ate it, wow, the stars were so bright tonight.
I walked over to the front door after eating and opened it taking a step outside in my fluffy slippers and pj top and shorts.
I stood outside looking up at the stars, remembering when Amajiki showed me how bright they were last time.
I sighed after a while, my breath appeared in front of me from the cold air.
I guess I didn't feel the cold like normal, my body wasn't working well today, I was a little numb by now.
My phone suddenly vibrated in my hand.

Nejire: hey, he looked like he missed you at dinner today, also I'm sorry for saying things like this, maybe I shouldn't x
Me: no! I always had a small piece of hope too, I actually enjoy you saying these things x
Nejire: plus, I still say he likes you, he won't be with her forever anyway x
Me: I hope, but we have to be happy for him... Even if I don't want to be x

I locked my phone and walked back through the door feeling sleepy, someone was standing at the window.
I looked over at Amajiki, my heart raced, maybe if I was quiet he wouldn't notice me if I tried to sneak past him?
I took one step and the floor boards creaked from my gentle movement, he turned around seeming a little startled "o-oh, it's you, I got scared for a second there" he breathed out in relief.
I walked up to him at the window as he turned to face me "jesus! You're freezing, I can feel it coming from your body, how long were you outside for?" he asked starting to look a little anxious.
"I-I, I'm not sure, I didn't realise it was cold" I admitted embarrassingly.
He looked around and picked up a blanket that was covering one of the sofas.
He came behind me and slowly wrapped it around me letting his hands softly drape on my shoulders.
His arms stayed around me as I felt my heart beat loudly against my chest.
He rested his chin on top of my head, which wouldn't usually work because of my ears but they were super droopy today, his arms felt so nice wrapped around me and holding me.
I felt a little awkward now knowing he had a girlfriend, what would she do if she saw us like this?

"t-thanks...I remember when you showed me the stars before" I smiled to myself not worried he'd see because he was still behind me.
"o-oh, yeah, that was a good night" he sighed.
I tilted my head a little "are you OK?" I asked after he had sighed.
"y-yeah, don't worry about me, I'm just feeling a lot at the moment, I don't want to let a-anyone down" he let go of me as I held onto the blanket.
What did that mean?
"well, you could never let me down" I looked away, well, I felt let down at the moment but that was more because of Kimi rather than him.
He turned to me "t-thank you".
"I-I'm going to bed" I awkwardly placed the blanket back over the sofa, just looking at him made me fall harder but at the same time my heart ached knowing he was now with Kimi.
"oh... OK, maybe I should too then" he looked out of the window one last time before we both made our way to the stairs till we got to the girls floor "goodnight" I tried my best to fake a smile.
He looked a little lost in thought "g-goodnight" he stuttered before walking up to the next floor.
I went to my room and sighed, even talking to him was hard, I still really liked him, just seeing him still made me excited, except now it was mixed with a little pain.
I put my pillow over my face and wanted to scream but just let out a muffled groan from frustration, anger and sadness.
Why did I have to get so attached to him? Was he also OK? He didn't seem to be, I would usually have talked more to make sure but I don't think my emotions are ready for that yet.
I'll try my best to support him tomorrow.

The next day I left my room tiredly as I couldn't sleep well and kept having nightmares.
I still felt quite crappy but I wanted to try and be my normal self today!
"well well, you're finally up" Kimi turned the corner... What was that to supposed to mean? Had she been waiting for me!?
"morning to you too" I spoke sarcastically feeling confused.
"right so first of all" she pushed me against the wall harshly, what was her problem now!?
"do not touch him" she growled gripping my thin wrist tightly.
"what do you mean?" I asked nervously feeling like I was going to tremble.
I wanted to be confident and show her that she couldn't scare me but I just couldn't and she really did intimidate me as much as I hated to admit it to myself.
"I saw you at lunch yesterday! Hugging him! He's MY boyfriend, stay away from him" she stared at me.
"I-I was congratulating him on you" I explained.
"and? You don't need to touch him for that! Or ever! And second of all kick me again and I'll break your fat legs" she pushed me against the wall again scratching my wrist as she did so drawing blood a little.
I whimpered out "you've got what you wanted! I'm still his friend".
She smirked "I haven't, and you'll need to stop being his friend then won't you?" she walked off.
What did that mean? What else did she want?

I went to the bathroom and cleaned my cut on my arm from her nails, how were they so sharp!?
I looked at myself in the mirror, I'm still going to be his friend!
I did a bit of makeup hoping I wouldn't cry it off today and made my way downstairs.