Sunwoo and I got back to my house after a slow, painful and long bus ride. We go upstairs into my room; my mom wasn't even home. We sit on my bed, his hand on my back.
I sat there, completely dazed. I still was shocked, I couldn't even function, I didn't know how to feel; it hurt so much.
"Jihyun.."
"I'm gonna take a shower." I suddenly stand up.
I grab random pajamas from my dresser and go into the bathroom, immediately breaking down. I cover my mouth to stop me from making noises, since I was sobbing so hard. I sit on the bathroom floor, just crying my eyes out. It hurt so much, I couldn't feel anything, it felt numb now.
"Jihyun, I know you're not showering." I hear Sunwoo from the other side of the door.
I cover my mouth tighter, sobbing more. He opens the bathroom door and sees me on the floor, a complete crying mess. His expression turns into a painful one and he sits down next to me on the bathroom floor.
He embraces me into another hug, a tighter one this time if it was even possible. Again, I was sobbing on his chest, soaking his sweater.
"Sunwoo, I can't, I.." I sobbed.
"Shhh, Jihyun.." he whispered, playing with my hair.
"It hurts" I said in between sobs.
"I'm here for you." He says softly.
After long minutes of me sobbing like crazy, he finally calmed me down. We sat on the bathroom floor, not moving even an inch away from each other. He cups my cheeks, holding them in his palms making me look up at him.
I sniff, making eye contact with him.
"I know it hurts, I know," he begins. "But I'm here for you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you. I'm so fucking sorry." He frowns.
"Please forgive me, Jihyun," his voice cracks.
"It's not your fault, Sunwoo." I caress his cheek.
He holds my hand, the one that was caressing his cheek with one of his hands. He looks at me with such devastation, it was heart breaking.
"I can't help but feel like it's my fault, I should be there with you 24/7, I-"
"Stop, Sunwoo." I cut him off. "You're helping me so much right now, by being here for me." I give him a reassuring smile.
"Where was the other guys? Where the fuck were they?!" He bursts out, angry.
"They weren't around, it's not their fault.." I mumble.
"Eric should've been there! He's always with you! One of them should've been there with you," he whispers. "To protect you."
"It's none of you guys' fault. Stop beating yourself and then up." I shake my head no.
He looks at me, still holding my hand that was caressing his cheek. Once he looked into my eyes, his expression softens again.
"From now on, I'm going to be there by your side 24/7. I'll pay the principal to transfer me into all your classes." He breathes out.
"Sunwoo-"
"It's not safe for you anymore, it's just not safe. I know you can't move schools, other schools are too far away and you need to live close so your mom can work.."
"It's not safe. I'm paying the principals, I need to be there with you every minute." He shakes his head vigorously.
"I can't let the same thing happen again, I can't. I'll go crazy and actually kill someone." He vents, not letting me speak.
"I'm paying everyone I need to in that school, I'll beat up every guy who comes close to you so they won't mess with you, I need to be there for you so I can protect you." He begins panicking.
"Jihyun, I just can't, I can't let it happen again, I can't. I just can't. It's too much, I'm going to go crazy."
"Jihyun, I'm so sorry if I end up beating someone up to death, I just can't.. I can't let anyone touch you like that, I can't.. I won't allow it.."
My heart broke even more seeing him so panicked like this. He was clearly freaking out and I didn't know what to do, he kept cutting me off.
"I'm so sorry, fuck.. Jihyun, I'm so sorry-"
I crash my lips onto his, making him shut up. He cups my cheek and kisses me back passionately, then pulled away. He gulped, looking at me with shock.
"Jihyun, you-"
"You just couldn't be quiet." I smile at him bitterly.
"Fuck, how could you make me fall for you even harder?" He grabs my face and kisses me again, more passionately this time.
He was being really rough, grabbing onto my shoulders, so I had to push him away before something happened. He licked his lips and turned red, avoiding eye contact with me.
"S-Sorry.. I couldn't help it.." he stutters.
"I-I need to use the bathroom.." he stammers again.
"Weirdo." I stand up, walking out of the bathroom and closing the door for him.
I walk back into my room, closing the door. taking off my uniform, I look in the closet for a hoodie to wear. I quickly slip one on, along with pajama shorts. Luckily I was done changing before Sunwoo came back into the room.
I threw the dirty uniform into a bin, laying on my bed. I buried myself with the blanket, basically cuddling a long pillow. I had the TV on, and I was blankly staring at it. My heart still hurt from what happened, I felt scarred. But I knew I couldn't cry anymore, not in front of Sunwoo at least.
He came back into the room, closing the door behind him. He laid next to me under the blanket as well. Sunwoo turns his body facing me, staring right at me. I look at him, confused.
"What?" I speak up.
"I just want to make sure you're not secretly crying." He responds.
"I'm okay," I half lie.
"Are you okay?" I ask him.
"After those kisses, yes."
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partners ⁀➷ k.sw ✓
Fanfictionkang jihyun gets partnered up with kim sunwoo, a popular boy in school, to do a school project that was going to take months to finish; she had thought that he was like any other stereotypical popular boy.. was she right, or was she wrong about him...
