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Days and weeks went on, Sunwoo began to make more excuses when it came to being with me. He started avoiding me way more, acting as if I wasn't there. He spent all of his time with Soyeon, not giving me any thought.

I was fed up with it all. We were supposedly a thing, then the next thing you know, he's flirting with some other girl. I'm not even overreacting either.. Sangyeon saw them hugging, acting all cute and lovey dovey.

While all of this was happening, Sunghoon and I happened to get closer and closer as friends. We hung out more every day, talked more, texted more, etc.. Jake, Sunghoon, and I became closer as a group.

I kept in touch with Eric the most out of the others, the other guys seemed to stick with Sunwoo and Soyeon.. which is why I decided to distance myself from them all, sticking to Eric, Sunghoon, and Jake. In fact, I also met some other people in their friend group; Heeseung, Sunoo, Jungwon, Jay, and Riki. We hang out with them also, though they don't go to our school.

Hanging out with them managed to distract me from the whole Sunwoo thing; but, in the back of my head, the thought of him was stuck. Laying in bed everyday, I couldn't help but be upset. I missed him a lot, I really did... but, my feelings for him were dissolving day by day. It was obvious he was done with me and wanted everything to do with Soyeon instead.

I was actually happy that I was getting over Sunwoo. If he got over me that quickly, so should I. I shouldn't sulk and mope about him any longer.

Sunghoon has been there for me every single time I felt down; though I didn't share with him what was really bothering me, he didn't bother to ask, he was more focused on cheering me up. Besides from Eric, Sunghoon is a really close friend to me. I can tell he's been warming up to me day by day, getting less shy, and I think that's really great. He's a cute guy with a nice personality.

It really hurt, seeing Sunwoo being friendly and flirty with some other girl; especially my old best friend. I was mad as fuck. He takes my virginity, then two days later, goes off with another girl and forgets all about me and what we had. Honestly.. it is what it is. I keep trying my best to hold in my anger whenever I see him, because I just want to confront him, but I know it's not worth it.

"I love you so much, Jihyun!"

Clearly he didn't love me enough to stay.

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The doorbell rings and I get up to open the door. I look in the peep hole and notice Sunwoo. I gulp, hesitating to open the door: eventually I opened it. He smiles at me and walks inside, so I close the door behind him and lock it.

I was shocked. Overwhelmed. This dude has been avoiding me for almost 3 weeks now, completely forgetting about me, going off with Soyeon instead. At this point, we weren't even a thing anymore. Not even friends, neither. We were nothing to each other.

I love him, but as the weeks go on, my love and feelings for him are going away. Maybe it's for the best. If he truly loved me, he would've stayed with me. I love him a lot, but I'm not gonna go and chase him when he has his eyes on someone else. It's human decency for myself. I'm not gonna go and run after him, and fight over him because it's not worth it. I deserve more than that.

Best thing to do is give him the same energy he's been giving me for the past few weeks. I'm definitely not going after him and I'm definitely not going to beg for him. It's a waste of my time, emotions, and feelings. It's his loss if he wants to fuck around with some other girl.

"Is there something you need?" I ask him coldly.

Just looking at him hurts my heart and also angers me.