Never Be

Chapter 4

Before I even start writing this chapter, can I just say that I love you if you're reading this story. I honestly thought it was gonna be really... I dunno, cliché? To post a story like this, but I'm happy you're liking it. Also, I have a few ghost readers and I'm not getting any votes. I don't wanna be selfish or greedy, but it makes me happy when I get a new vote/comment. But anywho, I should get on with my story so... Enjoy!

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I gulped down the giant lump in my throat. I understand that I have never met them and they've never met any of the family before, but I'm pretty sure they know about Lauren and Harry. So why not me?

Ashton's eyes shifted and he avoided eye contact with me. I stared at him with tears threatening to spill out of my eyes in complete disbelief. I licked my lips nervously and gazed over at the three boys sitting at the table.

"Hello? Is anyone gonna introduce the girl or...?" Michael waved a hand in front of Ashton's face and the other two nodded along. I hesitated, but decided to speak up.

"Hey, I'm Madison, Ashton's sister." I said glaring at him in disgust. I looked back at the guys who looked as confused as hell. I can't believe he actually never mentioned me. This is... I-don't-know-what-word-to-use...

"S-sister? You have an other sister?" Calum asked in disbelief.

"I can't believe you actually never told anyone about me. I mean even the rest of the 5SOS-FAM knows about me." I muttered under my breath. This was actually happening.

"Have I seen you from somewhere?" Luke asks out of the blue.

"Uh. What?"

"Oh my gosh! You're that YouTuber! The only Girl-Gamer in the world to actually play FIFA and be pretty damn good at it!" Michael exclaimed joining in to the 'conversation'. I smiled.

"Yeah, that's me..." I grinned.

"We have some talking to do..." Calum pointed at me. I chuckled and sat down next to Luke. I had decided to ignore Ashton for the rest of the day until we get back home tonight and I can scream at him as much as I want.

There was no space on the table for Ashton since the table was for four and I took the last spot, so Ash had to go sit on an other table, by himself and eat lonely. I kinda felt sorry for him, but I pushed that feeling aside. What he did to me was much worse than what I did to him.

You might think I'm being a little ruthless with him and that its not a very big deal that he never mentioned his - quoting from him directly - "favourite sister" to any of his friends. I understand that he wanted to protect me or whatever, but protect me from what?! This is what I don't understand. I don't think those boys are dangerous, because if they were, I'm pretty sure Michael wouldn't have light purple hair.

And if he had to protect me, well he didn't do a hell of a good job, cos the rest of the 5SOSFAM knows about me and that's something.

And I understand how the rest of the boys probably didn't really know about me because - when you're as famous as they are - you get tagged in so many tweets that you can barely see any of them.

And the whole thing about "them knowing about my channel" explains why they're following me on Twitter and Tumblr and Instagram and- well you know where I'm getting with this...

"Okay so how did you skill Neur? I mean, skilling a goalkeeper is the hardest thing on earth!" Calum scratched his nose in confusion.

"I told you Cal, it is a matter of luck. All I did was a 360° and ran into the goal. No big deal." I shrugged.

"Yeah, but Neur is, like, the best goalkeeper!" He exclaimed.

"Yeah, but it depends on who's team you're playing against. Like there, I was playing against some guy's Dream Team and Neur just happened to be stupid." I chuckled.

"But..."

"Yes, I was surprised when it happened too. But it did and it gained me a couple thousand more views and likes and comments..." I smiled.

"I absolutely love you..." Michael mumbled.

"Ditto." Luke agreed.

"M-me too" Cal stared at me.

I giggled at they're stupidness. "You guys are weird." I laughed.

*Couple of hours later* *at home*

As soon as we got home, I decided to give Ashton a piece of my mind. I mean, I should shouldn't I? He did pretend I didn't exist around his friends for more-or-less 2 years. But before I could start Ashton surprisingly did.

"What the fudge Madi?!" He swiftly stepped towards me making me tumble back.

"Uh... What?"

"Don't uh... What me! How could you do that?! You stole my friends you made me seem like a loner all day!" He was raising his voice. Probably on the verge if shouting and because mom isn't home, Lauren is at a sleep over and Harry's on a school trip, no one could help me if this got out of hand.

" I didn't steal your friends, Ashton! Who do you think I am?!" I shot back, making him look way more furious than before. "You wanted me to get to know them, so I did! What's your problem? It was your idea!"

"Yeah, well you excluded me from your conversations!"

"You excluded me from your life."

There was a moment of silence after that. I blinked hack tears which stung my eyes as they came on, but because there were so many I let them pass. What's wrong with crying anyways? Oh I know. The humiliation of showing the world you're weak and sensitive when all your life you've been strong and confident.

I had never felt... Upset and angry at the same time. I didn't want this to happen, but I was getting a bad vibe from my brother. Almost as if I don't like him as much as I used to. There had been times when I felt like this about my other siblings, but never towards Ashton. He had always been there for me. No matter what it was.

"Madi... I..."

"No, you nothing. I thought you at least told them about me. But then again I thought it. I almost knew, because of course, if you tell them about Lauren and Harry then its almost obvious you would tell them about me. But, then again, you didn't. And I don't wanna hear your excuse. Because that's what it is, just an other excuse. You never say it was your fault. You never just apologize. No, instead, you blame it on something or someone else." I hissed. I was crying by now and I was trying to keep my voice from shaking or that would make me look even weaker than I look now.

"Madison-"

"No. Okay? Just... Don't... Don't try make something broken get back together. Because that's what I am, broken."

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I'm sorry I had to :/