Never Be

Chapter 24

"No." I look down at my hands.

"How can you do this Madison?!" Ashton screamed.

"Ash, you don't know what you're talking about, its not what it looks like!" I shout.

"How can it not be what it looks like?!" He shouts. Luke and I fell asleep in the same bed and Luke just so happened to be shirtless.

"We didn't do anything! Ashton, what the hell's gotten into you?!" I shout.

"Oh I don't know, finding my sis-"

"Aaashtonnn... I miss you baby..." Someone purred. She leaned on the doorframe with her shrit slightly unbuttoned. She had high waisted shorts with knee high socks.

"B-ianca?" I stutter. I shift my eyes between Ashton and the blonde and felt tears prick my eyes. "Y-you didn't...? Did you?" Ashton looked down. My eyes widened and my hand covered my mouth. "You... Why?! Ashton! After all she's done!"

"Well there's not much difference between what I did and what you did."

"ACTUALLY, THERE'S A HUGE DIFFERENCE!" I scream. Luke was just sitting there awkwardly. "WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!"

He didn't answer. Bianca left and I was left with Luke and Ashton.

"You know what...?" I say sadly. "I'm going back to Australia."

"W-what?" Luke turns to me. I feel bad, but I ignore him.

"Fine! Leave! You gave me nothing but trouble while you were here!"

"Okay. I'll go." My voice breaks. I'm quiet, my voice's barely audible, barely above a whisper. I look down at my lap where my hands lay. "The next time you want to say that you want me to be happy, don't, cos we both know that's not true." I say. And the next thing that happens is something that I will regret saying for the rest of my life.

"You're just like your dad!"

Ashton and I have different dads. I have the same dad as Lauren and Harry, Ashton has a different one. Ashton's dad left when Ash was two and apparently, he betrayed mom and was really mean to her and was an alcoholic. Then two years later mom had me with my dad. After that they had Lauren and Harry and everything was well and happy until dad died of a brain tumor. It was the worst experience of my life.

This is why I hate myself right now.

I looked up biting my lip harshly and I looked at him. He was looking at me wide eyed, he looked shocked, angry and sad at the same time. I shouldn't have said that.

"Ashton..." I stand up slowly when I see his eyes well up with tears. Before I can say anything else, Ashton walks out, stomping his feet to the ground making tons of noise. "No, this can't be happening, you know what I'll just leave, this would've never happened if I wouldn't have been here." I say rubbing my temples and sitting back down on my bed.

"What?" Luke sits up next to me and rubs my back.

"Luke, you and I, its just... Wrong. Can't you see? You're better off without me." I look at him. I honestly strongly believed that. He is better off without me. I'm nothing special and I'm a distraction to the band. Plus, if the boys have to fight because of me, then I'm really gonna feel guilty. To be honest I feel guilty right now, because I told my brother he was like his dad. I should just go home.

"How can I be better off without you? We haven't dated for that long and I already have these feelings! This has never EVER happened to me before with any other girl other than you!" Luke raises his voice a little which he's never done so I'm surprised.

"You're going to live, you've done it before you can do it again." I say.

"I-"

"No, Luke, no more words. I'm the worst person in the history of people, I've just told my brother he was like his dad and now I'm blowing you off after the first day of our relationship!" I tear up letting only one tear slip. "Trust me, we're better off being apart." I say getting him up onto his feet. I cup his face and give him one last kiss. "See you later alligator."

"No. Madi, please." He says as I push him out. "We're my OTP. I'm not giving up on us." He gives the door a light nudge and then the silence falls on the room. I know he's still there and I haven't moved from my spot. My tears blur my vision until they all fall at once and I'm crying pretty hard. This is probably the worst day of my life.

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A/N

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