Never Be

Chapter 20

"Y-you what?!" I blink blankly at the boy in front of me. It took me a second to realize what had just happened. How can he like someone so plain like me? This isn't possible. It must be a dream.

"I'm sorry..." He mumbled. Are we still talking about him liking me or something else?

"What?"

"I'm sorry that I kissed you, I'm sorry that I told you I liked you, I'm sorry for ever interfering with your life, okay? I'm sorry for everything." He looked down. "You know what, maybe I should just go."

"Luke, no, wait!" I grab his wrist and pull him to sit back down with me. I put the other end of the blanket around him again and try to gain back the heat I had before. "I'm glad you kissed me first of all, one, because it was actually really nice and, two, because we now know how much my brother is crazy." I laugh. He turns to me and smiles. "I mean, I haven't seen him in seven months and when I finally get to spend some time with him he puts a million rules he never EVER mentioned before."

"Really?" He asks still looking at me. I could see him in the corner of my eye as I was looking out in the distance.

"Yeah... But you know, you've been really helpful, with the whole Emma thing and yeah..." I look down at my hands and then look back up at him. "I don't think Ashton would've ever done that for me- at least not now, I mean, three years ago he'd do anything but now..." I exhale and look back down at my hands.

"Yeah, I get it."

"You do?" I ask hopefully looking up at him with my brown eyes on the verge of tears.

"Yeah. I have two brothers. I used to be really close to Jack and Ben, until he met his wife. Then he kinda hung around her more than us and he would never be the same as he was before." Luke's eyes glimmered.

I hate myself. I can't believe it. Sometimes I can be such a twat. I don't realize that other people have problems too and that its not only me who goes through a brother changing. Crap I feel so bad. Luke looks like he's about to cry and I'm here looking like a dufus just because my brother shouted at me. He's gonna think I'm a brat. Wow, nice going Madison.

"Don't worry, it'll get better." Luke smiles genuinely. His skin was perfect and he looked almost like he was fake, honestly he could've been a piece of art. Must be all the make up. I thought. I mean no one looks so perfect. I don't think the girl from She Looks So Perfect looked as perfect as Luke right now.... I giggled at my thoughts forgetting Luke was there. He tilted his head and smiled confused.

"Sorry... I was thinking about something... Funny..." I laughed at my awkwardness. Luke looked at me funny, but, soon started to laugh. They tell me my laugh is contagious is that true?

"Oki doki then, we should head back. I'm freezing..." He shivered.

"Aw, you're cute." I blushed. NO! NO! NO! NO! NO! WHY MADISON, YOU DON'T TELL PEOPLE THEY'RE CUTE. Maybe it was just a friendly way right? Right. Yeah, I'll believe that. Yeah... I have no idea why I said that at all.

"At least on of us is." He smiled.

"Oh my god, no you didn't!" I stand up point my finger and shout.

"And what if I did?" He chuckled.

"You're such a dork, Hemmings." I shook my head as we both make our way to the house.

"Yeah, but I'm your dork." He laughs as he boops my nose.

"If you keep going like that I'll take it back!" I warned jokingly.

"Ahhh. No! You can't do that!" Luke bumps his shoulder into me.

"Oh yeah? Who said?" I smile.

He didn't reply. We just keep walking and I can't help but think that I may have upset him. He just keeps looking forward and walking along side me.

"Madison?" He calls when we get to the front gate.

"Yo!" I say lamely and turn a around to face him.

"You really are cute, I was joking earlier." He smiles and looks down at his feet.

"Yeah I know." I smile. "Oh and Luke...?" I put two fingers under his chin and pulled his look up. "You'll always be my awkward dork..."

Satisfied with what I said I turn around and I step in front of the door. I hesitate before opening it.

When I finally open it I'm engulfed in a hug by my brother. Well that was unexpected... "Um... Hi...?" I say wrapping my arms around him awkwardly.

"Hey, Madison, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize you felt that way. I understand if you hate me, and I know that you and Luke were just fooling around, so I forgive you for everything and we can start again." Ashton says. After that I push him away and back away from him.

"Wait a minute, you forgive me? For what?! I didn't do anything! Its you that's been acting like an asshole for the whole trip, if anything you should be apologizing to me! Not the other way around!" I say seriously. I'm not shouting but I'm close to it. I'm not crying but I'm close to it.

"Dude, honestly, you seriously think she needs to apologize to you?" Michael says from behind.

"Yeah, seriously, you're really bad at this!" Calum threw his hands in the air. I shake my head trying to hold in my unwanted tears and push past everyone and go to my room.

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Is Madison making a bit too much of a fuss over this? Is she over reacting? Or is she right to feel that way? Tell me in the comments!!!!!!! Any who, is this short? I post from my phone so Idk. Anyway, until next time!