I Don't Believe In Love💔

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I went to bed and fell asleep slowly after Mattia left.

I walked away from Alex and he grabbed my arm turning me around back to him.

Alex: Don't get mad, please, I don't feel the same anymore...
A: i-it's fine...

After 3 years... I gave him my all and all I was left with was a broken heart. I nodded and wiped my tears away trying to leave already.

A: why?
Alex: why what?
A: why did I trust you, why did I fall in love with you, why did you cheat on me?

I asked looking at him with rage in my eyes.

A: I told you things I never told anyone, I let you into my life just so you could brake me?! Alex I loved you but I should've known you were going to do this, Your just a stupid ducking bitch.
Alex: *shocked* Arianna... calm down.

I just ignored him and walked away leaving him there

I woke up and sighed. Again that stupid dream. I walked over to my fridge and got a beer before walking over to my balcony and looking out to see the view.

M: Don't you think it's a little to early to be drinking?
A: What the fuck, don't you learn how to knock?!
M: woah... are you crying?
A: no something got in my eye fucker.

I said chugging the bottle of bear and throwing it away. Mattia looked at me worried but I just rolled my eyes and went back to bed.

A: can you close the door!?
M: get up
A: fuck no.
M: I said get the fuck up Arianna.

I groaned and stood up annoyed.

A: why?
M: We're going out, for a walk for whatever I just don't want you to be drinking and smoking anymore.
A: ugh, I'm okay I don't need your stupid help.
M: I know you don't, I just want to be nice.

Mattia said going into my closet looking for clothes.

M: is this the only thing you don't have revealing?
A: I have more you just don't know how to look

Mattia rolled his eyes and handed me the outfit he picked out.

M: okay let's go.

I put my shoes on and grabbed a jacket before following Mattia to his car. We drove to this hill with a bench on the top.

Mattia tried to hold my hand but I moved it away from him and looked down at the view.

M: who's Alex?

I looked at him shocked and just turned away.

A: a person.
M: You know... I had my first girlfriend at 13 we lasted 4 years but she cheated on me and left. It hurt at first but then I slowly forgot her and focused on myself. All my tattoos are about self love and about how I matured. It was hard to forget her because I loved her but I forgot her eventually.

Mattia said looking forward. I glanced at him but then looked back forward.

A: why would you tell me that? That's personal.
M: Because I know deep down your not the girl everyone thinks you are, I think Alex was the one who made you think boys are all the same, stupid.
A: ...How did you forget her?
M: I just realized she wasn't the one, it took time but once I focused on myself and moved away from alcohol and drugs I slowly forgot her.

I nodded slowly and drifted off to a memory..

Alex: your beautiful Arianna, don't let anyone say otherwise.
A: thank you baby.

Alex kissed me softly and smiled.

Alex: I love you.
A: ... i love you too

I wiped away a tear and stood up walking to the car. I got in and waited for Mattia to get in the car.

M: what's wrong?
A: I want to go home.
M: why so soon?
A: just take me home.

I said serious. Mattia nodded and drove me home. I got off the car and was about to go inside the building but Mattia pulled me back and hugged me tightly. I stood there in shock but slowly hugged back.

M: Don't drink anymore tonight.

I nodded and went back inside.

Alex: I would never hurt you Arianna.

Lies.