𝗥𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗯𝗼𝘄

Q & A

Q: What was the inspiration for this story.

A. Um... depression 😂 I mainly wanted to focus on how Yoongi was obviously depressed because he wasn't able to grieve and I take that as a a bad habit of mine. I've lost a lot of people in my life and I usually go "oh another one bites the dust" and then months later i ACTUALLY grieve and lash out. Another part of me is in Jimin. I have good days in which I love myself bare face and others where I refuse to go out without make up. A lot of his insecurities came from his mothers need to be a perfect child and that comes from my dad wanting me to be the perfect daughter despite that he wasnt a perfect dad. Honestly, this is just all of my insecurities portrayed by each character BIG yIKES
author fact: i use to be a very depressed person!

Q. There was obviously a much bigger plan for this or different idea. What was the original plan?

A. Haha so funny um i never wrote an alternate ending of the main idea but like... I hated love last year when I started this and was depressed and I was like "nah yoongi gonna off himself" and then i got in a relationship in which i learned to speak my feelings and grow confident despite the fact that we both had our own problems going on so i realized... "huh... you CAN get better through other's love and care" author fact: i love my boyfriend uwu dont even get me started i love that man so mu—

Q. I like Suran, why make her such a bitch?

A. Lmao i dont know of any other girl that has been accused of dating Yoongi so—i dont ever keep up with the toxic fandom's speculations, any person portrayed as evil in my fics has NOTHING to do with my personal opinion in them. I personally hate making certain idols act "wrong" which says a lot about a fic ive been writing for a year now and I feel bad making Jackson a complete dick 😂
author fact: my ult has been jackson since 2017

Q. What would have happened had Hoseok and Jin gotten together?

A. Nothing, I never planned that to happen. Thats a lie, sort of—I wanted it to be a readers choice but then realized "i dont have enough followers or readers for that." But I knew no one would actually vote for them because they're an underrated ship too. I guess, thinking about it now, I would have dived deeper on Hoseok's insecurity with being left out with his friends and Jin's self discovery.
author fact: im bi, despite the fact that im in a straight relationship

Q. What even was going on with Jungkook's past and his reluctance to dating?

A. I wanted to squeeze this in at the end but ultimately decided not to add it because I realized I usually dont care for other's details in their pasts and thats okay. The idea was there—that Jungkook had trust issues and would slowly overcome them but I realized the main couple was Yoonmin, not Taekook and showing too much of their relationship would make the readers lose focus and forget the overall message that was actually about mental illness, not about trust issues or toxic relationships. Plus, adding another toxic ex felt repetitive.
author fact: i mostly just wanted to portray my toxic exes and decided that being petty wouldn't ruin their lives, karma would

Q. Are there other alternate endings?

A. I actually did have an idea where the two wouldnt end up together that didnt involve suicide 🤷🏻‍♀️ I know that sounds weird but it would basically be this bittersweet ending where Yoongi would focus on himself and promise Jimin he'd better himself for Jimin and the story would end with Jimin promising to wait until he was mentally stable. I'm a dickHEAD writer and would add a little easter egg that could mean many things which could have meant
1) Yoongi was actually just gonna commit anyways but it's obviously left for speculation
2) Jimin might have been fake and a figment of Yoongi's fucked imagination and there was a more underlined mental illness in which his grief caused him to hallucinate to cope OR
3) Jimin was already dating someone else and Yoongi misinterpreted his kindness for something else. I know— I'm just... awful and would have been a great ending for maybe a shorter more fast paced fanfic OR JUST ANGST...might keep that in mind...*takes note for future fanfic*
author fact: i read this yoonmin fanfic a fucking while ago where jimin was delusional and imagined his dead ex —taehyung—coming back and the fanfic ends with yoongi preventing him from killing himself and i remember thinking it was such a piece of art and an AMAZING story and ... i cant find it again. i think the author deleted it and that makes me sad.