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by _passiveagressive_

Okay okay here's a long story for y'all!

So way earlier in the school year(even before school was shut down), I started 'introvert grudging' against one of my friends. I can't think of different names, so for privacy's sake, I'll call her 'this friend'. Anyway, I was grudging because she got pissy at me, I think because she thought I was laughing at her? I swear I wasn't! So, I kinda avoided this friend for a long while, purposely not talking to her or sitting by her in the half hour we're there before school officially starts. This makes me sound like a jerk...which I am, at this point. We've only texted eachother like once(actual conversation wise) and I think at that time I was still upset.

So earlier tonight(and I won't share too much info for privacy's sake once again) she was texting me. I was downstairs, and my cell was upstairs on silent, like usual. This makes me feel like the HUGEST of jerks now, because she brought up something that was very brave of her to say--especially since I've been ignoring her since early March...

She brought up how I had said at my last birthday party that most of ny friends are LGBTQ+ and that she didn't fit into that(again, I'M SUCH A JERK TwT) Then she said she had discovered something, and basically--no, not basically, she did--came out to me as Aromantic. Which, if I'm being honest, I should have guessed. I mean, when I was complaining about my crush way back when, she said and I quote "you really want to date people in highschool?" I didn't think anything of it at the time, but uH guess that was a clue.

Long story short, I AM SUCH A JERK, and I've collected another lgbt friendo. Granted, no one knows I'm demisexual/biromantic or whatever my label is at this point, but it means a ton to me to have another ace-spectrum friend. If we're even much of friends anymore...

Rant over, I'm gonna fish for compliments from my crush by complaining about how I'm a shitty friend.

Wait- what did I just write-

Wow.

The ego in me needs to cHILL.

-E ✌

Oh, and don't worry. I did respond to this friend's texts.

...two hours later than when her's were sent.

Anyway, I explained why I didn't respond right away and that it means a lot to me that she even bothered telling me at all, even after months of me ignoring her for reasons I never explained to her. Here's hoping that apology works...but I won't know until tomorrow :T

Frickin anxiety making everything that much more difficult...