Cassiopeia Polaris (Sweetest Downfall Series I)

Bituin 14

Masyado na akong naging busy sa University. Lalo na ngayong paparating na ang Prelims. I need to focus on my exams. I don't want to be removed sa dean's lister.

It's been a week already since Noelle gave me our old Family Picture when I was a baby. I still don't know how to approach Nanay about doon and na hahanapin ko ang Tatay ko. I'm not hoping na mabubuo kaming pamilya, I just want to know the truth.

It think it's the missing piece of myself that I wanted to be filled. I hope Nanay will understand.

I still haven't told Kael yet about me and Noelle. We're not officially a couple but I think my friend should know the truth. I don't want to keep secrets from Kael.

1 week na rin wala sa University ang Basketball team since may game sila sa labas ng bayan at bukas ang balik nila. I will tell Kael everything tomorrow.

"Bakla, bakit ayaw mo sumali sa contest? Sa ganda mong iyan. Mala Catriona naman ang hubog ng katawan mo. Matangkad ka naman. Tell me, bakit ba ayaw mo?"
Kanina pa ako kinukulit ni Ferr na sumali sa Mr. and Ms. Intrams.

Kanina ko pa din nirereject ang pinipilit niyang proposal. He wants to negotiate with me na Kapag sumali ako sa Intrams siya lahat ang sasagot sa gastos sa Pageant.

"It's not really my thing, Ferr. At saka, hindi ako marunong rumampa"
I told him while I'm arranging the files needed for the Intrams next week.

Hindi pa din ako makapaniwala na pumayag ang University President to move the date of Intrams a day after the Preliminary Exam. Masyadong torture iyon sa mga student leaders na kagaya ko.

"and besides, I will study for the upcoming examination. I don't want distractions"
I added

"Friend naman, Yakang yaka mo naman ang Q n A portion. Kung ayaw mo I'll talk to Michael para sabihin ang questions sayo" Hawak niya ang phone niya while his trying to dial someone's number.

"Fuck you Ferr. That's cheating you Idiot! Ikaw talaga napaka-ano mo. How many times do I have to tell you na ayoko nga?" Paulit-ulit kong sambit sakanya. Dala-dala ko ang files na papapirmahan kay Dean Diego ng bigla namin nakasalubong ni Ferr ang babaeng nakita ko last Sunday.

Our eyes met and I know that she knows me. Anong ginagawa niya dito? Lumabas siya galing ng Dean's Office. I wonder what is her business here in San Antonio at bakit dito sa B.U?

We immediately took our seats pagkapasok ng office ni Dean Diego.
"Ito na ba ang mga papers na for signature for the Intramurals?" He asked. He's checking every pages, every words and sentences. Masyadong Strict talaga si Dean pagdating sa format.

We were about to head out when he called me.
"Ms. Ramirez"

"Yes sir?" I answered him.

"Would you like to join the Ms. Intrams? You can be the representative of our Department"

I can see the smile coming from Fernando's face. Shocks, I couldn't say no. He'll be the one making my referral letter sa aapplyan ko after grad. Without giving Ferr a look, I immediately gave my answer to Dean Diego.

"Bakla! Excited nako. We'll pick your gowns na tomorrow. I'll call Mamita Poly for your make-up and posture rehearsals. Gosh!" Kanina pa siya hindi mapakali pagkalabas lang namin ng office ni Dean akala mo nakawala sa kulungan.

Now, I'm doomed. How can I focus sa exams kung dagdag isipin pa ang Pageant na iyon?

"I wonder kung sino ang makakapartner mo? Hm. Baka si Maddox. Ang hot niya bakla kahit sophomore palang." He exclaimed because of excitement.