Janto oneshots

Wherever i go

⚠️TW: attempted suicide⚠️

———————————————————————Jack glared at ianto. It was stupid, he didn't even know what they were arguing about anymore. He had come back for ianto ... hadn't he? Why was the Welshman so upset? Jack turned to storm from the room. "Oh that's it!" Ianto exclaimed bitterly "off you go to your precious doctor... off you go Captain Jack Harkness". Jack winced at the full title and turned in the door way "ianto..." he began but the welshman interrupted him, "no ... it's fine off you go what should I care?..... I'm just a tea boy" he spat. His words rang in jack's head like broken church bells all chiming out of time 'what should I care?'... jack froze... "Wait ... what?" He questioned, his voice slightly smaller than he would have liked. "GO" ianto practically bellowed. Jack felt a flare of rage burn through the centre of his body "WHAT SO THATS JUST IT ?!". Ianto stood briskly "WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO JACK?! YOU WANT ME TO SCREAM AND CRY AND BEG YOU TO STAY EVERY TIME YOU WALK OUT THE DOOR?! THATS HOW UNRELIABLE YOU ARE JACK... EVERY TIME YOU WALK OUT THE DOOR, WE DON'T KNOW IF YOU'RE COMING BACK! AND I'LL TELL YOU THIS IF I FUCKING CRIED EVERY TIME SOMEONE LEFT I'D NEVER STOP CRYING JACK!" As he finished the last word his eyes filled with hot tears and his voice shook as he sunk down onto the chair. Jack finally saw what this was about. To ianto, everyone left... and many never came back. Jack saw what ianto really wanted. Stability. Someone to hold and to love and to always be there. But the rage still didn't leave and jack said something he never thought he would to ianto jones "PEOPLE LEAVE ME ALL THE TIME IANTO... ALL THE FUCKING TIME... YOU ALL DESERVE IT". With that the captain swept from the room. He didn't hear the small sob that sounded from his office. He didn't hear the words that ianto uttered in a small voice "I never left...". Ianto bowed his head as he sobbed into his hands. That's it the last of it... gone... kaput... the last of his hope had just walked out the door. What was even left for him. Fine. If jack was going to leave ... so would he. His hand crept along the desk until it made contact with the cold metal of jack's gun. His fingers closed around it as he held it toward his chin. His hands shook as he pulled the trigger halfway when... "IANTO NO JESUS CHRIST NO" jack's voice sounded out, making ianto jump. The gun swung in his hand the trigger releasing. The gunshot sounded. A searing pain shot through iantos stomach as he crumpled off of the chair towards the ground. Jack rushed across the room cradling ianto in his arms. "Ianto ... Jesus ... don't leave me please come on" he urged as ianto felt the need to close his eyes just for the moment... he had a choice ... jack or the darkness... and suddenly ... he wanted jack it was all he wanted as he clung to man screaming for the medic. Tears spilled from his eyes as Owen worked. He tried to apologise over and over until... no the darkness... please no... NO PLEASE... he changed his mind ... he didn't want to die... PLEASE ... PLEASE!!

"JACK!". That was the first thing ianto yelled when he woke up in the med bay. He was surprised to find the captain stood by his bed clutching his hand. Ianto began to sob "I thought I'd died" he choked out wincing at the pain in his abdomen. Jack stroked his hair "no ... shhh Cariad no didn't you hear Owen? he needed to knock you out... you wouldn't stop moving ... did you not feel the needle?" The immortal asked the Welshman in a soothing voice. Ianto shook his head the tears still leaking from his eyes. Jack cradled him close, as best he could with ianto being on the medical bed. "I'm so sorry ianto ... I never should have said that I love you and I'll never leave you again" jack muttered as ianto snuggled into him, breathing the captains scent  to calm himself down. "I love you too but ... what if the doctor turned up and needed to whisk you away" ianto mumbled tearily as his sons began to slow. Jack pulled ianto closer "I wouldn't go until he said you could come with me... in the future ianto ... I promise you this... wherever I go... you will ALWAYS come with me".