Janto oneshots

The hand that harms

A/N:
This is a kinda ptsd oneshot

It has heavy references to past child abuse and household homophobia (there will be homophobic slurs) so if any of this triggers you please do not read this oneshot.    Good mental health is important peeps
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"How come he gets treats and we don't" Owen whined as ianto returned from jacks office after taking the captain a cookie and a coffee. Ianto, who wasn't in the best of moods that day, shot a look to Owen "well maybe if we were fucking, you would" he remarked before turning back to the kitchen, leaving the doctor in the midst of girly giggles from Gwen and tosh.

The rest of Ianto's day wasn't much better, he hadn't slept much in the past week and was easily irritated. He snapped at tosh for breaking a mug handle and scolded jack for not keeping his office clean. By the time Gwen had gotten round to her usual subtle flirting with jack, ianto had had enough. He waited for the rest of the team to leave the room before he pulled her aside. "Why do you keep flirting with him" he asked bluntly no kindness in his voice at all. Gwen looked at him "jealousy doesn't suit you ianto" she said with the same sting in her voice. "Besides" she carried on "he's not even your boyfriend.... you're just shagging him. You and half of Cardiff". Ianto's huffed at her remark and said something he knew was out of order no matter how annoyed he was, "well, at least I'm not trying to sleep with all my colleagues first Owen then jack when I'm in a happy relationship ... Gwen cooper, why is it you're even married to Rhys if you're going to do that?". Gwens mouth dropped open as she took a step forward. She looked at ianto for a second before she slapped him. Actually slapped him. The noise echoed around the room and ianto brought a hand up to touch the burning skin. Gwen watched with slight horror as, instead of stalking off like she expected he would, ianto stumbled back against the wall of the conference room and slid down it, bringing his knees to his chest as if attempting to protect himself. "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry .... please don't hurt me" he mumbled almost incoherently as hot tears began to fall down his face. Gwen took a step forward to comfort the Welshman but he flinched away further with a scream. Owen, who had been the closest to the conference room at the time of the scream, rushed into the room. "What the hell happened" he demanded as gwen gestured towards ianto half fearfully. Owen lowered his voice and attempted to move towards the young Welshman "ianto??..." he murmured. It was no use, again ianto screamed "please don't hurt me I'm sorry I'll do better I'm sorry don't hurt me please". By this time jack and tosh had both entered the conference room. "Gwen what happened" Owen asked her sternly "he's having some sort of panic attack ....what caused this?". Gwen shrugged and looked down at the floor ashamedly. "Gwen what happened" Owen repeated somehow ever sterner than before. "Well we were having a Sort of well ... a sort of argument and he said something ....... and well I wasn't really thinking straight .... and I hit him but it wasn't hard and I don't know how it could have caused this reaction." Owen frowned for a second before his eyes widened "have any of you ever read Ianto's medical file?" He asked and the team looked around at each other shaking their heads with confusion as to how this tied into things Owen sighed as he brain began to piece things together "jack, can you get me Ianto's file" the medic asked with growing concern. The captain nodded looking less angry and more concerned than Gwen had thought he would be. Soon after hurrying out of the room jack returned with a paper copy of Ianto's file he looked as though he had been running. Owen scanned the page sighing as his fears became reality "Owen?"
Jack queried "what's wrong with him" he asked in a half fearful voice glancing back at the sniffling ianto. Owen beckoned him over and began to speak in a low voice so that the girls couldn't hear him "look here hospital reports from when he was a kid... I always teased him for being such a clumsy kid whenever I read his file for medical purposes. He always looked nervous when he caught me reading it and now I know why. See everything I'm supposed to know as his doctor is written in bold however this bit here has been written in normal lettering. He obviously didn't want me knowing it and it worked I always skimmed for the bold writing so I could focus on that but here it's a past therapy report for past child abuse" Owen finished his whispering when they heard a small voice. "Jack?" Came Ianto's innocent voice as he looked up seemingly acknowledging  who was in the room for the first time. Ianto made grabby hands at jack looking younger than he ever had before and jack felt mildly bad for even recruiting him so young as he rushed to his side and wrapped his arms around the younger man. Gwens eyes widened as jack began to mutter to ianto and she realised she may have been wrong with her earlier accusations. "Shh baby I've got you, you're safe" jack assured ianto in a soft voice. Ianto snuffled into jacks chest before speaking in a quiet voice that only jack could hear "can you get them to leave?".
"Course i can anything for you" jack whispered back before raising his voice and addressing the whole team "Oi you lot .... OUT". They followed his orders without complaint, what else could they do?. As Gwen trailed out she felt guilt rising in her chest she still didn't know why ianto had reacted the way he had but she did know that maybe jack did love ianto and maybe it had been wrong to devalue that in front of the younger member of the team.