Fall "Who wouldn't fall for you?"

NINETEEN

Ma:

Hindi po ako makakauwi ngayon. May problema lang po si Liezl. Sasamahan lang po namin ni Hershey dito sa dorm. Ingat po kayo palagi diyan. Love you!

I sent the message to Mama. Napabuntong hininga ako. Mukhang isang buwan na hindi ako makakauwi sa Bulacan nito, ah.

The door of the dorm opened.

Napasapo ako sa noo nung makita kong may dala dalang alak si Hershey. She said earlier she will go out to buy something outside. Akala ko naman kung ano. Napangisi siya sa akin. I roll my eyes at her.

"Iinom natin yan!" She said grinning at us.

Napangisi nadin si Liezl dahil sa kanya.

I know what she's doing. Hindi ko mapigilang titigan sila. I smile while looking at them. I'm glad they're my friends. Masaya akong kasama ko sila ngayon...lalo na sa gantong panahong kailangan ko sila. I need someone who will stay and listen to me. Someone who will never judge me and correct me if I'm wrong. But I think this is not the right time to let them listen to my problem. Liezl needs us more. Ayoko ng dumagdag pa sa problema niya. I can handle myself. Actually parang bigla kong nakalimutan yung problema ko dahil sa kanila.

"Autumn kumuha ka nga ng baso!" Utos niya sa akin.

Napailing nalang ako. Pumunta ako sa kusina at bumalik dala dala yung tatlong baso at pinggan lalagyan ng pulutan. Napabuntong hininga ako ng malalim nung makita ko yung Black Label sa sahig. Umupo ako sa sahig katulad nila. Liezl get the remote and opened the TV.

Natigilan ako sa pagkuha ng pulutan nung marinig ko kung ano yung papanoorin niya.

Napatikhim si Hershey. "Kala ko ba nagtatampo ka diyan? Eh ano yan?"

Napasimangot naman si Liezl. "Nagtatampo lang ako sa sinabi niya na hindi niya alam yung gagawin niya...pero mahal ko pa din siya," mahina niyang sabi.

Hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti dahil sa sinabi niya. I admire her for loving him like that. Nakakatuwang makita na ganyan yung iniisip niya. She's still young but she's already seeing him as her husband in the future. That's why I can't help but be sad whenever I saw someone do a relationship for fun. In my own opinion, you don't do a relationship if you're not ready or thinking about the future...marriage. Having a relationship with someone...or loving someone is thinking about him as your everything, your other half for a long time. Napailing ako. Maybe I'm too idealistic person, ha.

I know we're still too young to think about it. It's just for me there are other things you can do to have fun. If you know to yourself that you're still not ready, enjoy being a single, be with your friends and family! Have fun without using other people's heart.

Inabot naman sa kanya ni Hershey yung basong may lamang alak. She drink it straight like water. Hershey's jaw dropped. Napailing nalang ako. They are both heavy drinkers.

"Oh UP versus DLSU pala ngayon eh," Liezl said looking at me.