✅ Badass Brothers ✅

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it's been a few weeks and we decided that we are going to go through with that program

we got a book about it and it seemed like a good fit for him

the good part is i can still talk to him and we get to visit every 2 weeks

it's summer so he doesn't have to worry about school which is amazing

i just want to do whatever it takes to make sure he's okay

ever since it happened Jonahs been distant from me and it's sad

i don't have Jordan, he's still at that girls house, Calebs at the hospital, Masons at Jonahs mom and Jonahs being weird

it's really annoying and i just want to hug one of my boys

"Jo why are you being so weird and distant?" i ask him as we eat dinner

"what do you mean?"

"you don't talk to me ever and at night you sleep on the couch for some reason. you're never like this and it's weirding me out"

"oh i didn't even notice i did that"

"is there something wrong?"

"no there's nothing wrong"

"well then tonight can you actually sleep in the bed with me"

"maybe"

"what do you mean maybe!" i say with tears in my eyes

"are you crying?"

"yes! why don't you want to sleep in the same bed as me is it something i did."

"no no no its just- nevermind it doesn't matter just please stop crying"

"but you aren't the same. do you not love me anymore. what did i do can you please let me know."

"you didn't do a thing and baby yes i still love you. i-i just did something that would probably make you hate me"

"wh-what did you do?" i ask

"i can't tell you."

"but i need to know"

"you need to promise me that you won't leave me"

"i promise now what did you do"

"the night Caleb went to the hospital i dropped Jordan off at Jordan's house and her mom talked to me and i-i"

"don't finish i get it you cheated on me. but why Jonah why."

wow

he really didn't change at all from high school

"i don't know. it just happened"

"i can't believe it. you know my past with all of that and you went and did it still" i say thinking of my dad, Corbyn, and even Caleb

"i'm sorry."

"i just- wow. am i not enough for you. i understand that i'm not the prettiest or skinniest but i thought you still wanted me after all these years and kids."

"babe don't say that. i didn't even want to do it, it just happened and i immediately regretted it"

"did you use a condom?" i ask and it gets silent for a while

"wow Jonah i can't believe you. how far did you get"

"shes 1 month pregnant" he whispers

"what was that"

"she's... 1 month pregnant"

"wow. i-i dont know what to say this is unbelievable." i say shaking my head

"i'm sorry"

"you can't just say you're sorry and think everything is magically better. you really cheated and got another woman pregnant. i could have maybe dealt with it if you used a condom but no. wow. how old is she"

"Cara that doesn't matter"

"how old is she Jonah"

"32"

"of course she's younger than me. is she blonde?"

"yeah why"

"i shouldn't have dyed my hair black. maybe if i was a pretty, young, blonde you wouldn't have done this"

"hey don't say that you are gorgeous and young"

"then why is she better. why did you choose her over me your wife. was she really worth wasting years of love over"

"what do you mean wasting"

"i mean i just wasted my whole high school, college, and years after school life loving someone who doesn't love me back"

"i love you back"

"no you don't. so what's going to happen now. you're gonna get a divorce and take the kids and move in with her. leave me with nothing"

"d-divorce. who said anything about a divorce."

"you cheated on me"

"b-but Cara i don't want a divorce! you can't do that!! i can't lose you! i need you! i love you! we can work this out please! i'll never leave the house again! i'll sleep on the floor of the basement! i'll eat whatever is left in the trash! i won't speak to you. just-just please not a divorce anything BUT a divorce."

"so you want me to just sit married to someone who doesn't love me enough to have the decency to not stick his dick in any pretty girl that gives him the chance"

"seriously"

"what she gave you the chance to cheat and you took it. i didn't do anything but take my suicidal son to the hospital so he was safe. i didn't ask to be cheated on, i just asked to make sure someone brings other people to places so they're safe too."

"she wanted to talk to me"

"and you talked to her, you did much more."

"i didn't know it was going to happen"

"did she lock you in her house or room"

"no"

"did she remove your pants without your permission "

"no"

"then you could've left. you had the opportunity to leave and not cheat and you didn't take it. i'm going to learn from your mistake and actually take the opportunity to leave and not be with someone who clearly doesn't care about me" i stand up and walk towards the door

i'm so done with him and everything

"baby don't! don't leave me please" he pleads

"well then don't cheat on me"

with that i slam the door shut and run to my car breaking down

i'm heartbroken
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