✅ Badass Brothers ✅

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Jonah

I miss Cara so much

i haven't seen or heard from her in so long and it's killing me inside

i know i'm an asshole and an awful person for doing what i did but it was an in the moment decision

i didn't want to do it but it happened and now i'm having another child

now i am super stressed and i dont know what to do

i can't just get out of her life while she has my baby but i know if i want to be with Cara she won't want me to see her.

its just a lose-lose situation all around

i also haven't seen Caleb or Mason in so long and i need to

I occasionally see Jordan when i'm at Jordyns house but i never see my other kids

Cara won't let me see Mason and Calebs in the hospital so I can't just see him

plus i know if i showed up as his visitor instead of Cara he would be disappointed

the worst part of everything is it's Masons second birthday so soon and his brother is at a hospital and his mom and dad aren't together

i have no idea if me and Cara are going to stay togetehr but i have hopes that we will

i can't lose Cara i love her too much. again i wasn't thinking when i did what i did and now i regret it

ive been staying at our house with hopes of Cara coming home some day.

i sleep on the couch though... i don't deserve a bed

Every day i text Cara telling her how much i miss her but she never responds and it's breaking my heart

i know i'm at fault but i need a response

for the first time though i am going to try and call her

i pick up my phone and call her

it rings for a little bit and suddenly it answers

"hello?" she asks on the other line

she doesn't know i'm calling... she probably deleted my number

"Cara! Baby is that you"

"don't call me baby Jonah."

"i just- i'm sorry. ive been texting you constantly my apology but you never respond."

"i don't have your number in my phone."

"i understand that. Can you please just come home? i need you Cara i do! i need you and Mason and Caleb and Jordan. please"

"you see Jordan all the time and you can go visit Caleb whenever you want that's up to you. now with me and Mason i'm sorry i'm not ready to face you yet. i'm heartbroken and sad and hurt and mad and all these emotions and i just can't see you"

"but you don't understand. i love you Cara i really really love you. i know what i did was so fucked up and wrong and i don't deserve to be happy anymore. but i just i need you and i need to see you. i want no NEED to make our relationship work. Can you just come home, please. I know you say you can't see me but i know it's what we need. just please"

"i dont know Jonah. again i'm so hurt with this because you know about my past and how badly cheating ruins me. at the same time though i want you to be able to see your kids. i know when my dad cheated on my mom i wasn't allowed to see him and i hated it. but i just can't bring myself to go anywhere near you."

"What if you brought Mason to the house so i could at least see him. you don't need to look at me or anything just let me see my baby"

"ugh i-i don't know."

"please Cara"

"ugh fine but i'm bringing him tonight!"
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i know this story isn't being read by anyone anymore but i still love it

i'm almost done with the story and yeah i loved this one