I'm Not Okay But it's Alright - Fransykes

23. Coma

It's surreal. To be able to say, to say, to think, "my boyfriend is in a coma."

Or anyone. Anyone you were close with, knew, it was surreal to say that. And here Josh was, after hearing the news Oliver was in a coma.

And Oliver jumped.

And Josh didn't even get to say 'I love you too.'

So instead, Josh screamed. He ran down the stairs and called the police while holding a bleeding, mangled body.

"My b-boyfriend he jumped and now he's dying fucking help!"

It took minutes for Josh to form comprehendable sentences and inform the dispatcher of where he was and what had happened. But they found him and Oliver and took Oli away from Josh's arms that were now covered in blood. Oliver's blood. Jesus fuck, he had Oli's blood on his arms.

And that feeling remained. The warm fresh blood of his boyfriend. The fear and wretched heartbreak at what had happened. Someone had ripped Josh's heart out of his chest and replaced it with this empty suffocating void.

"I never knew, how could I never fucking know?" Tom, who Josh realized to be Oliver's brother, asked in agony, sitting beside him. He was tugging at his hair and mumbling to himself.

"He hid it well," Josh murmured. "He closed people off just so no one would know, and he wouldn't get hurt again."

But Oliver didn't get hurt. Josh did; Tom did; everyone in his life did. Even Kellin, even Vic.

In fact, Vic sat in front of Josh comforting a crying Kellin.

"Why would he do that? I thought he was getting better."

"Because of you," Josh said dryly, an unmistakable hate towards Kellin. "Because you made him promise something, you made him love you and then you left him!"

"Josh, calm down, you're going to get kicked out," It was Vic speaking now, trying to calm the raging Josh.

"Oh don't you tell me to calm down! My boyfriend is in a coma because of Kellin! How would you feel if Kellin was fighting for his life because Oliver broke his heart? Hm? Bet you wouldn't be calm," Josh snapped.

"Sir, you need to calm down or we'll be forced to call security and escort you out," the front attendant said.

Josh didn't want to calm down. He wanted to scream and shout and hit everyone because until he saw Oliver standing happily with his unqiue, beautiful smile on, Josh would not calm down.

But he'd rather have the chance to visit Oliver, asleep or not, then let his emotions out angrily and be thrown out.

So he shut up and sat back down beside Tom, tapping his foot anxiously and praying to every God that Oliver would live.

It took hours before Josh was allowed to see Oli, but even when he did Oli was asleep. In an unpredictable coma.

His arms were bandaged, and his body was in terrible shape.

A leg, broken in numerous areas and a dislocated arm, cuts and bruises everywhere. Who knew the permanant damage on the brain, if there was any. There was a tube down his throat as he couldn't breath on his own, he had a collapsed lung, which only tore Josh's ripped out heart even further.

Today was supposed to be Oliver's birthday, his seventeenth birthday. He was supposed to be nearly an adult, getting his life settled, applying for colleges, and in Josh's world, spendung the day with him. But instead he was in a hospital bed because he didn't want to be seventeen.

"If you die on me, Oli, I-I'll- I'll miss you so much, I won't forgive you."

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wow another coma written by meee

okay so thisll probably go away within a few days or some shit and maybe even after i post this, but i go to write this chapter and what mf shit do i see?

#1. in Fransykes

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again this prideful moment will probably go away soon but idgaf, the fact my story was there for a simple moment makes me shook and thank u sm <3

my writing is worse than sitting through math class next to the most annoying idiot that told me to follow him on tik tok
thats saying a lot
so thank u

specifically Asking4AHorizon, ive @ them, giving thanks, before but im going to continue to do this because theyre amazing and read the majority of my stories. go support them. they deserve it.

now wheres my fucking dog this song is making me cry martha you cinnamon roll i love you