Undivided || Lai Guanlin Fanfic ||

CHAPTER 33: Did it work?

A/N: Again this chapter is based on a song and the title is Fine by Taeyeon, you can listen to that song while reading this if you want to

________________________________________________________

YOUR POV

It has been 2 weeks already and I am currently in the library reading some letters, i have been peacefully reading all the letters that I have to read and reply to, but I guess fate just really wants to mess with me everyday because when I took the next letter and opened it a familiar seal can be seen. The seal from Guanlin's land, and it was the letter they sent back to tell my parents that I was indeed in their territory. I heave a deep sigh before folding it and setting it aside.

I took a pause for a minute before looking outside through the window, where the deep forest I once went through to cross the barrier is located, when i can feel tears whelming up again making me shake my head to deny every emotions.

Did my plan really worked?

Of course it didn't. Because no matter what I do everything reminds me of him, just like now it's just been 2 hours since I've started my day but i'm already thinking about him.

I look back to the letter that I just folded and once again i felt like i was back to square one. It felt like i was back to the day where i returned home, the day where i felt miserable, when i felt like crying again, when the pain is unbearable.

Everyday is just the same, it's always like this. I try my best but my ending is crying in my room to sleep. Why do i keep going back to him?

Even though I try my best to hide my feelings it always show when I remember him. Even though it's been weeks i'm still trying and wondering if he's feeling the same way right now, but then i'm just hoping for something pointless.

One day turns to two until it's been weeks, and i know we're both living differently.

Unlike you, it's not easy for me, i still think about you. Unlike you I can't just let things go yet, like the fool I am it's still your name I want to call out.

It's not fine, i know

That's why I look for something to do, something to distract me, but everything reminds me of you.

Sometimes I can manage myself to forget but most of the time I can't handle it, to be honest my life is turning pointless day by day.

A minute turns to hours until a whole day have pass, I thought I could smile but tears form instead.

Unlike you it's getting tiring for me, you still fill my heart and mind. Unlike you I still hope that our beautiful memories will repeat.

Nothing's fine, and it's true

Those conversation we make, in the middle of the night or just completely out of nowhere.

Those sincere quotes to pointless jokes.

I might seem to forget it but the truth is, i still remember everything. I might all that happens is now in the past but I guess i'm still living in that past.

Everything is still fresh in my mind,

From the day I met you in the forest,

to the day of our last moment, the moment that keeps coming to my mind. I told you goodbye and wish all the best.

But who am I to hope for you when I can't even do that for myself

I'm not fine.

JUNHUI'S POV

I was currently walking in the hallway and was About to walk pass by the library where Sunhee was working when I saw her staring at nowhere. I walk over to the door and was About to knock on the door to cut her off her trance when I got a better look and saw a tear rolling down her cheek making me stop from doing anything.

I stood up straight and look at her full of concern, this is the 11th time i saw her secretly crying for the past two weeks, but what's worse is that i can't comfort her nor approach her, why? Because she'll deny it all.

Sometimes, no not just sometimes, every time I walk pass her room every night I might not see her crying but I can definitely hear her and it's hurting me to know that she's still suffering.

How I wish i can took all the pain she feels so she can finally be happy but sadly I can't all I could do is comfort her, listen when she wants someone to talk to, and support her.

I asked her to open up to me and even if she agreed, she's my sister and i know she won't do it. It's not because she doesn't want to but because it's hard for her to do so. She always put everything she feel as a secret, all her opinions are bottled and her freedom right now is not in the best state.

Now this remind me of the day back when I asked her to take my place instead, be the one in line for the throne. She gladly took it because she knows how I am and thought it would be fun but things took an unexpected turn. Our parents become too uptight and too controlling to the point we can't just be live what's happening. She also cried herself to sleep back then.

I know all her pain, so when she run away I know exactly what the reason is. I am not the person to get angry at anyone but the thought of losing my sister angers me and makes me snap at my parents. There are events that happened when Sunhee was gone and one of those events is our parents realizing their mistake.

That's why they oath to be a lot more cautious about the things they do. But the thing is Sunhee also changed her attitude towards them at least.

I took a sigh knowing I can't do anything, I turned around and think,

Did it really worked?