The Choice

Chapter 9

As I stood there.
She just could just lay on her back and read the cosmopolitan.
I just stood there beside the door and composing myself and trying to work out the first line to say in my head, I was lost in my head.

When Ava words just got me out from the virtuality to the reality, "Hayley, it's okay. You don't need to act like a stranger. Just come in will try talk so that the things fall in pace."

I smiled and walked in and sat on the side of her bed.
"So what page are you reading?" I asked trying to small talk.
"How to live your life to the fullest." She replied.
And I chuckled. Perfect she is as a calm as before a storm.

"And listen, don't try to small talk. If you want to know something then ask." She suddenly said.
I asked, " Okay what really happened?"
She replied, " I was driving and out of no where did a car came and dashed my car. So the steering wheel hit my chest and my writs.......Okay fine I had cut my writs before getting on the car to drive.
That's it."

" So what triggered the wrists sliting? Because of that girl.....?"

She snapped, " That girl had a name Page Maguire. And no, it is not because of her. I am just done screwing up. I am good for nothing. And I literally just screwed up a patient's life."

"See, its okay. Even I have gone through this after my mother died and after dad disowned me....But see still I am here and I am also here............."

She interrupted angrily, " See this,this is  exactly what you do.You try and end up making all the things about you. Did you ever try to find anything about me?!! Anything??"

I had no chance to reply.She just took a little amount of breath and started to countinue again. And I let her,it is important for suicide pysch cases for them to vent out.

"I was sixteen, when I got pregnant because of my first boyfriend. And I could not abort the child as it was already to late. When she was born I gave her up for adoption and started studying hard to become a doctor and when I was nineteen I fell in love with my science professor who was ten years older than me and we decided to get married and on the wedding day he left me in aisle telling that I am too young for him."
And she started laughing like a maniac. I thought of calling the psych but then she continued

"And then my mother passed away due to aneurysm and then every day till graduation I would just reminisce that if only I would had been home to take my mom to the hospital then she would be alive. If I wouldn't have given up on my daughter then I could had named her Hannah, played with her and so many things that I would had just changed my life."
And she started sobbing.

"And then I met you Hayley in the college and it felt like my life just got a chance to start all over again. We would study together and go out in weekends and get into all mess and now it all gone. And you know what it might feel selfish but I miss your madness you have gone kinda ratchet." She said.

"Obviously Ava that time we were in college and now we are freaking doctor and we always have a matter of life and death in our hands.Things change, time changes and most importantly circumstances change. And its okay patient's die and sometimes it our mistake or their time has come. We just cannot beat ourselves because of a death." I replied.

"Oh please after your grandmother, you practically looked half dead and you don't give me lectures about dead people you have enough dead in yours than I have in mine." She said almost smiling

" That's what life sucks and sometimes we screw up and just need a little push to get going." I replied back smiling.

"Wow, dude you did a better work than a shrink. I guess you should go into psych.

I threw a pillow at her. And we had both started laughing.

" Okay maybe not psych but can we at least spend some of our time outside the hospital, chilling somewhere?" She asked with her golden eyes.

"Okayy. Sure. But promise no more accidental slit writs and if any mistake worth meds call code blue it is okay if it is your mistake. And I read in some magazine that 70% of doctors lose more than  thirty patients on clinical trials so it's okay to make mistakes."

"Oh my god, I have missed your photographic memory. Okay fine." She replied narrowing her eyes.

Just then there was a knock in door and in came nurse Lanie.
She smiled at me and started reading from the file.
"Hello Ava , hopefully you are doing well. You will be discharged tomorrow. Dr.Medicus will sign the discharge papers tomorrow in the morning."
And then nurse Lanie left.

I told Ava, " Hey listen I will take tomorrow off okay? We will watch depressimg movie, dance out heart out and order in some pizza. Sounds good?"

"Yeah, it does." She replied smiling.
 
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I went to Dr. Medicus.

"Hello Dr.Medicus." I smiled
He smiled back, " Hello, Dr.Grey."

" Can I get the day off tomorrow?" I asked.
He replied, "Sure. But just make sure you ask one of interns to take care of your patients."
" Sure sir and thank you." I replied.

Hmm, mentally I am done with all. I have spoken to Dr.Medicus for the day off and have texted my interns to take care of my patients. Only have to tell Will.

I went to Will room 0216.
He was awake. He smiled at me and it felt like the whole room had lit up because of his smile.

"Heyy Will, I am sorry but I am taking tomorrow off. I want to spend some time with Ava. Dr. Sia will take of your meds tomorrow. Okay?"

" Yes okay but you have to make it up to me the day after tomorrow okay? And take care of Ava. He replied.

"Sure will make it up to you." I replied.
And then I started walking towards the door when he just called out
"Hayley, good morning."

I checked my watch it was 1:00 am.
"Good morning, Will " I smiled and started walking towards the on call room to sleep till 8:00 and then take Ava to home and spent the day with her.