The Choice

Chapter 23

 Sitting outside the Dr.Medicus' is the hardest thing ever. I remembered the first day over here as an intern. Me, Ava , Julia , Alex and James were sitting her together.

Julia came running.

I said,"Don't worry I will take the blame."

"What did you do Hayley."

"I did what I thought was right."

A  man came out and called out, "Dr. Grey into the office now."

I smiled at Julia and went inside.

There was Dr.Medicus sitting on his chair.

"Dr.Grey please sit down."

I sat on the char in front of the table.

"So now I am going press the crimes that you have done since 22:00 okay?"

"Okay."

"Then I will decide your outcome okay?"

"Dr.Medicus I know I am going to be fired. And this day is exactly like our first day as an intern so I am feeling a wave of deja vu."

"I know it is a hard day for you Hayley......"

"So lets get done with it."

"Okay fine.And I am not sure if I will be firing you."

"Why just because my mother was the greatest doctor of her era?"

"No, because of your own capabilities."

I started laughing.

"What happened Hayley?"

"Those are the same words we both said when I had my interview over here."

"Oh yes true."

"Not that you remember."

"No, I do remember Hayley. Now let's talk about the things."

"Fine."

"Answer yes or no."

"Okay."

"Are you married to Will Grayson?"

"No.I was supposed to be if your doctors could perform a.........."

"Enough.Answer the question given in yes or no. If you do this again then I will end this session."

"So he proposed?"

"Yes he did."

"Did you break the doctor-patient relation?"

"Yes."

"Did you do his surgery?"

"No."

"Were you in the OR when the surgery was on-going?"

"Yes."

"Did you inform Dr.Ross in the change of plans?"

"No."

"Was Julia involved?"

"No."

"Did you tell Julia that I gave her the permission?"

"Yes."

"Did you demolish the reputation of the hospital?"

"No."

"Do you think that you did the right thing?"

"Yes."

"But while doing it did it feel that it was the right thing to do?"

"Yes."

"Did you think that the result would be so bad?"

"No."

"When did you find out about panic attacks?"

"Yesterday."

"And you did not bother to inform an attending?"

"No."

"Why?"

"I don't tell anyone anything about my personal problems."

"When did you last have a panic attack?"

"Two hours ago."

"When you received the news?"

"Yes."

"So you realise the fact that you have killed two patients?"

"No."

"No?"

"Not my mistake that the transplant did not work out."

"Hmm okay. The fact that you did not follow the rules.'

"Yes."

"So you realise that an important person's daughter is dead because of you?"

"Yes."

"That's it Hayley."

"Okay."

"I will give you the outcome later."

I walked out of the room to room number 2016. 

Will's room.

Julia was already there. 

She asked,"Are you ready to pull of the ventilator? And are you sure you don't want Ava here?"

"No I don't want Ava here and can I say goodbye to Will?"

"Yeah sure."

Julia went to the corner and was pretending to be busy.

I leaned forward and whispered to him,"I love you."

Will looked at me and smiled and took a deep breathe and looked away from me.

Julia came back and said,"It is not your fault."

"Thank you."

After an hour the last breathe left from his lips. And I just went outside. I was trying not to think  or dwell about the fact that we will never get married by the sea. He will never pronounce my name in his Britain accent, his eyes, his hair glowing in the sun's rays. I will always love him.

I texted Ava, the message read,"Meet me at the terrace."