I entered the backstage with my head down. I immediately felt suffocated after I closed the door. I slowly breathe in and out before I proceed to the locker to posit my things inside.
"Aki." I froze when someone called my name. I turned around to face them with a small smile on my face. "Bakit?"
"Come here and join us." Nakangiting yaya ni David sa akin. I silently scanned them. Yesh is eating while looking at me beside Rin who's softly, smiling at me while David's standing near the sofa.
I gently shook my head to decline them in a nice way. "Hindi na. Kakakain ko lang din kasi."
I promptly looked away when I saw the commiseration in their eyes. I don't need that.
"Una na ako." Paalam ko matapos kong mailagay ang mga gamit ko sa locker. I walked towards the door without looking at them.
I almost freaked out when I felt a hand on my wrist, stopping me from stepping out peacefully. I unintentionally removed David's hand on my wrist that surprised him. "S-sorry." The anxiety is now dominating my impuissant system.
But then... we saw your similarities to Rin. Your appearance... Your personality... We shrugged that thought because we slowly saw you as Aki not Rin.
"A-aki.." I glanced at David, who's struggling to find the right words to say. I aggressively shook my head. Not now. "I'm s-sorry." Dali-dali akong lumabas ng backstage at tumungo sa restroom.
I close the door and quickly set put in an unoccupied cubicle. I miserably pulled my hair to take out myself from the pernicious darkness. Nanginginig ang mga kamay na kinuha ko sa aking bulsa ang natatanging bagay na pansamantalang makakatulong sa akin.
I recall when you said that you would never leave me
You told me more
So much more like when the time you whispered in my ear
There was heaven in my heart
I remember when you said that you'd be here forever
Then you left without even saying that you're leaving
I was hurt and it really won't be easy to forget yesterday
And I pray that you would stay
But then you're gone and, oh, so far away
Sandali kong pinalobo ang aking bibig at pinakawalan nang mabilis ang mabigat na pakiramdam na humaharang sa aking lalamunan. I refused to look at anyone I know inside the Musnetic. I need to stay sane for the sake of this performance.
I was afraid this time would come
I wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurtin' from within
I have learned to live my life beside you
Maybe I'll just dream of you tonight
And if into my dream you'll come and touch me once again
I'll just keep on dreaming 'til my heartaches end
Then you left without even saying that you're leaving
I was hurt and it really won't be easy to forget yesterday
And I pray that you would stay
But then you're gone and, oh, so far away
Subalit kahit anong pagpipigil ko sa sakit na aking nararamdaman, walang pakundangang umagos ang luha sa aking mukha.
I know I effortlessly express the right emotion of the song, dahil bakit naman hindi? I personally have the perfect pain that evinced the message of the song.
