Broken

seventeen

Lanae
Homestead Hills Nursing Home
A week later
Friday 3pm

I had just finished my shift for the day and was gathering my belongings from under the nurses station. Before I could stand all the way Ms. Anna was coming my way with a gift bag and a vase of red roses. I rolled my eyes because I knew exactly who it was from. It was the fifth delivery to my job, I can't lie it's very thoughtful. However this was the first time that Jordan sent a gift bag, lowkey excited to see what in it. Not saying it going to change how I feel, even though I've been depressed as hell. Chrissy won't even come to my house to hang out because she said all I'm going to do is talk about Jordan and much I miss him. I personally think she's over exaggerating just a little bit.

"He said don't open the bag until you're in your car or when you get home". Ms. Anna spoke with a smile as she placed the roses and gift bag on the counter.

"He brought this himself?" , I raised my eyebrow. He really brought this up here himself I thought to myself.

"Mhmmm , stopped me before coming in" . She looked at me with her hand on her hip.

"When are you going to stop being stubborn and talk to that man?" She asked while picking at the roses.

"Ms. Anna, I'll rather not" . I gave her a small smile and finished getting my things including the roses and gift bag.

"Okay fine, but let me tell you something. Don't push away a man who going out his way to show you he cares... listen here baby I was just like you. Stubborn and thinking it's best to be closed off not let people in ... but it's not healthy and it's going to mess with your head. I had to learn the hard way with my first love. I pushed him away so many times that he just got fed up and moved on. When I finally realized that he was my person it was too late. He was already in love with somebody else. To this day, no matter how many men come into my life I will never find a man who loved me the way that Terry did and I mean that .... don't wait until it's too late"

Ms. Anna gave me hug and began her shift as I walked to the time clock. I was thinking about everything she told me, maybe she was right. The reason I'm hurting so much is because I really love Jordan. I've never felt so happy around somebody until I got around Jordan. Jordan made me feel safe and so happy. He even helped me get rid of that sick ass Mariah. We had only been kicking for a while but during that short period of time I was the most happy I've ever been. I think I understand what Chrissy and Jordan meant when they said I was deprived myself of happiness. Once getting in my car, I sighed looking at the bag in my passenger seat. Ima just wait till I get home to open it. I started my car and lit the blunt that was in my ash tray and headed to my house in silence.

Once getting on the shower, I dried off and wrapped the towel around my body walking in my bedroom. I looked at the gift bag and decided to finally open it. I read the little note card first.

'hope you like it ma and hope to hear from you soon, I love you Nae'

I realized I was smiling at the note even though it didnt say much of anything. I placed the note to the side while pulling out a long slim black box. I opened the box and to see a gold chain with a heart shaped locket. I opened the locket slowly and immediately gasped. I stared at the pictures in the locket , while tears formed in my eyes. I slowly sat down on the bed while my tears began to fall slowly. It was a picture of my mom one side and a picture of my grandmother on the other. I couldn't believe he did this, it was beautiful and I was in love with it. I sniffled as I closed to box while taking the last box out the bag. It was a little bigger and more square. It was a pandora bracelet but a few charms , I smiled because I've always wanted a pandora bracelet but I just didn't want to spend the money for it. I put everything back in the gift bag and threw on some yoga pants , a tee , and some crocs. I grabbed my keys , clutch , and phone while heading for my front door.

Chrissy
The clinic

"Ms. Jones ?" The doctor said while walking into the room, catching Chrissy off guard who was strolling on social media.

"Oh uh hi" , she said while placing her phone back in her purse.

"Well, yes indeed your pregnant , you're between 7 to 8 weeks".

Chrissy didn't think she would be pregnant because she always had irregular periods and when she had sex with Marco they always used a condom. She assumed now that the condom broke had to break. Chrissy was kind of hurt because she didn't know how she would be able to raise a kid by herself. She couldn't call her parents because they cut her off after she made the decision that she didn't want to go to college but sadly they were murdered because her dad was doing business with the Cartel. Chrissy's mother was a realtor and her dad was a doctor, both were under the impression that Chrissy was going to follow into one of their footsteps. However, Chrissy was the complete opposite, school wasn't for her and she wanted to be cosmetologist. She had a love for makeup, hair and nails. She was currently enrolled into the program, so it wasn't like she was just sitting on her ass. Even though she didn't have her license yet, she was still hustling. Her outcome to is have her own salon. Chrissy didn't know how to respond the OGBYN telling her that she pregnant.

"So here's a prescription for your prenatals, and brochures for other options, and health risks and tips. Also because this was just a pregnancy confirmation, you will make your next appointment in the lobby at the front desk."

"Thanks" , Chrissy gave a weak grin while grabbing the papers and hoping of the examination bed. Chrissy made her next appointment and made her way to the car. Once getting in her car, she just broke down crying.

'What am I going to do?' I don't wanna raise this baby alone.'

This was all Chrissy could think about. After getting herself together, she started her engine and headed in the direction of her best friends apartment.

Sorry for the mistakes 😬