Broken

sixteen

Lanae
Her Apartment
10pm

I laid in my bed staring at the ceiling while smoking a blunt. I knew I needed to be going to sleep being that I had to work tomorrow but I just wasn't sleepy. I was tempted to call out but I'm not about to let this Jordan shit affect my money. Just a few hours ago. I was cussing Jordan out because after everything that he knows about me and what I've been through, he failed to mention that he got a bitch pregnant. A bitch that jumped me at that, HE SEEN THE SHIT. All he had to do was just tell me, communication plays such a big role. Just tell me so i don't get slapped in my face unexpectedly. Then you got all these females out here laughing at me and I'm parading like things is all peachy peachy. Jordan should have fucking knew better forreal. Just thinking about the shit gets me mad. However, at the end of the day I gotta protect my heart that's already cold. Lost in my thoughts, I finished my blunt.

Ding!

Jordan 😔
I wanna talk.

I looked at the message and locked my phone back closing my eyes.

Ding!

Jordan 😔
Please

I still didn't respond, I really didn't wanna hear anything that he had to say. Should have been wanted to talk we he found out about this fucking baby.

Ding!

Jordan😔
I'm at your door.
And I'm not leaving until you talk to me.
I'll sleep in my car outside ya crib if I have too.

Sleep out there then I thought to myself while I locked my phone and closed my eyes again. After about 2 minutes, I huffed and out my bed with only my over sized tee and slipped my feet into my slippers and walked to the door. I hesitated then opened a door to Jordan who was looking at me with his head low.

"Talk!" I said locking my hands in front of me and leaning on my doorframe.

"I can't come in?" He asked motioning for me to let him in.

"Talk, Jordan". I began to get annoyed because he was really pushing it.

"Look Nae, I'm sorry for how things went down. I was going to tell you, but I wanted to make sure the baby was mine first. I also know you're probably wondering if I messed around with her when I was dealing with you and the answer is no. I met Tia during that month that you ghosted me. I didn't even wanna fuck with her tbh but she begged. I only wanted a nut forreal. I thought I used a condom but I can't remember I was fucked up during the couple of times we did it. I also didn't know that Tia was one of the girls that jumped you until you said it. I swear if I would have realized I wouldn't have even got her number ."

I could say that he sounded and looked real sincere with everything he was saying. Even though he was telling me all of this still didnt change the fact of how I felt. If you're keeping secrets like this what else are you hiding from me?

"I never meant to hurt you maya forr-" he continued.

"But you did Jordan. Regardless of whether you wanted to wait until you knew if the baby was yours or not. You could have told me. I was your girl supposedly. Just how you stood here in my face and told me everything, you could have did the exact same thing after you found out. But you chose to hide it from me. What else are you hiding hmmm ? ...." I felt tears forming in my eyes and Jordan just dropped his head and looked away.

"You begged me to let you in Jordan and I did. You fucking begged. And then a couple days later , THIS is what I get..." I voiced began to crack so I just stop talking, crossed my arms and looked away.