Broken

thirty-eight

Tia

"Wake tf up". I heard a familiar voice spat as they kicked both me and Ryan's chair. Ryan slowly raise his head while I focused my eyes and made eye contact with Jordan. Jordan was smoking a blunt and his eyes was filled with nothing but pain and hurt. He had bags under his eyes, and they were red and puffy. He looked like shit forreal. He snatched the duck tap off our mouths and we both clenched in pain.

"Jordan I-"

"DID I ASK YOU TO FUCKING SPEAK." He yelled at me. I flinched at the sound of his voice and I just looked away while tears formed in my eyes.

"I don't fucking understand yo. TIA I DID NOTHING BUT MAKE SHIT CLEAR TO YOU. Told you that shit wasn't happening between us and it's JUST HEAD and sex but you had to be so fucking delusional". Jordan chuckled, shaking his head and hitting the blunt.

"You used to fuck with this nigga ?" Ryan choked out while he turned his beaten and battered face towards Tia. Jordan began laughing again.

"Then you told me you was pregnant, even though I didn't want you to be my babymothers , I was cool on taking care of the kid and what not , I just didn't fuck with you but that wasnt enough for you right?"

"You told me that baby was mines Tia," Ryan spoke again, his words being slurred from his swollen lips and blood filled mouth. I couldn't do anything but cry.

"Oh bossman that was yo baby, this bitch here didnt tell you that she was pinning yo baby on me because she didn't think you was man enough to take care of it" Jordan spoke taking another hit from the blunt and walked towards me before continuing to speak.

"But that's ova wit nie... I just wanna know why do you wanna see me suffer so bad?" Jordan asked me with all seriousness and the look on his face caused my heart to shatter.

"It wasn't my idea Jordan, I swear it was Ryan's I just went along with it ... I didn't know Ryan was plotting on you guys into a few days ago and it was too late, he had already tapered with her car"

"THAT STILL DOESNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT LANAE IS IN FUCKING SURGERY FIGHTING FOR HER FUCKING LIFE AND MY DAUGHTERS LIFE AND ITS YOUR FAULT BECAUSE YOU DIDNT DO NOTHING ABOUT IT AT ALL BECAUSE YOU WANNA BE BITTER"

"I was hurting okay Jordan? I had lost my baby and seeing you and Nae and her being pregnant just made everything worse.IM SORRY OKAY." I cried harder realizing I was so stupid. Instead of getting help, I just hurt more people. I could have done anything to fix the outcome of what happened to Nae but I didn't. I just wanted everybody to hurt not realizing I couldn't possibly be ripping a precious baby from it's parents. Ripping away a baby and it's mother to be honest. I turned into a monster.

"Enough of the pity party, nigga if you gone kill me kill me" . Ryan spoke up making Jordan and my attention go to him.

"You think you going out that easy ?" Jordan laughed before putting out his blunt and pulling some gloves over his hands. I began to tremble because I didn't know where this was about to go. I watched Jordan as he looked through a duffle bag that was on the table that I hadn't noticed until now. Jordan than pulled out a butcher knife from the bag, Ryan shuffled a little bit in his chair while keep his attention on Jordan and the knife. Jordan smurked and walked over to Ryan before slicing a nice sized wound on his thigh making sure not to hit the artery. He wasn't ready for this nigga to die because he wanted him to die slowly. Ryan screamed out in pain as Jordan then squeeze lemon juice on the cut. For the next hour Jordan just went putting cuts on Ryan and squeeze lemon juice on him until he felt like he had enough for now.
I looked at Ryan breathing heavily and tears escaped his swollen eyes and then at Jordan who was wiping off the knife.

"W-w-what going to happen to me?" I asked kind of scared of the answer.

"If Nae makes it out of the hospital, ima let her handle you ... if she doesn't make it then ima handle you.. and trust me you don't want me too". Jordan spoke before putting more tape over our mouths and leaving out turning out the light behind him.

Jordan

Ive been back at the hospital for a hour or two now and we still haven't heard anything from anybody and I'm getting more worried. Just as it seems like somebody was reading my mind a stressed out doctor came walking into the waiting area.

"Family of Lanae Givens?". Chrissy, Viktor and I jumped up and stood in front of the doctor shouting out questions back to back.

"Where is she ?"

"Is she okay?"

"How's the baby?"

"Can we see her?" Chrissy and I were going question for question until Viktor stopped us.

"How about we let the doctor speak." The doctor gave a small smile and mouthed thank you to Viktor for giving him a chance to speak.

"Ms. Givens is fine as of right now. The surgery was crucial and she lost a lot of blood. She had a lot of blood filling her abdomen so we had to do an emergency c-section-"

"WHAT? No she was only 6 months... that's too soon". I cried out.

"I promise you the baby is fine, she's in the NICU where she will say until she developed enough to go home, however for the mother she's suffering from a small brain bleed. It's not to the point where we need to go back under the knife and we're hoping that in due time it will heal on its own. She's in the ICU and I can take you to her if you like but please only one at a time" Chrissy let be known that I would be going first and as I followed behind the doctor I couldn't do nothing to let more tears fall. Standing at the door, I seen Lanae hooked up to so many cords, she even had a tube coming from her mouth, her head was bandaged up. I just broke down right there in the door way.

"Come here sweetie" I felt somebody grabbed my shoulder and pull me into their arms, I didn't even know who it was until I realized it was one of the nurses.

"I couldn't save her". I sobbed.

"Shhhhh, regardless of the situation and what happened. You're here now and she needs you, now come on" she helped me off the floor and walked with me into the room where she laid so lifeless. I slowly made me way to her bed and slide in beside her so I could hold her.

"I'm so sorry mamas, but you can't leave me here okay... I need you . Our daughter needs you, Chrissy needs you... micheal and ya moms need you Nae... come on you gotta shake back". I felt myself coming choked up.

"When you open those beautiful brown eyes I'm going to be right here waiting for you mamas. I'm going to make sure these doctors and nurses treat ya right, okay? I love you Nae and you ain't leaving me. I'm in l-l-love with y-you. And I can't imag- imagine my life without you in it". I kissed her chin and laid beside her for the a few more minutes before texting Chrissy letting her know that she could come up. I got up and found my way to the NICU to meet my babygirl.

"Make sure you put this on before walking into the NICU". A nurse handing me a gown, mask, and some hand sanitizer. I put it on and followed behind her to my daughter who was in this little box looking thing hooked up to cords just like her mom but she was still so beautiful.

"Now we cant physically take her out of the NICU but these holes are there for you to stick your arms in so she can feel your touch". I nodded my head and placed my hands slowly into the holes and I gently caressed her hands. She was so tiny and small, I fell in love with her right there.

"Hey princess." I cooed.

"Can't wait to bring you and mommy home, so I can spoil y'all" As I was talking to her, she managed to hold on to my finger with her tiny hands. I felt a smile creep across my face.

"You can hold on to daddy babygirl, I gotchu forever"

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