Broken

thirty-two

Chrissy

I'm sitting on the floor in one of Viktor's guest room trying to put together my son's crib. I'm 6 months close to 7 so I need to have things in order. At first after I gave birth, I was going to have Nae keep my baby until my contract was up. However, there is no longer a contract and I'm not a personal servant either. Feelings has grown between Viktor and I but we're taking things slow. The past few months have been amazing.

"Chrissy, where are you my love?". I heard Viktor voice bouncing off the walls until he eventually found me in the guest room on the floor. He placed a kiss on my forehead and sat down beside me.

"How was the meeting?". I looked at him with a smile.

"I closed the deal. But I don't wanna talk about business.... I wanna ask you something."

"Yes?"

"Do you think Lanae would want to join us for dinner sometime?"

"Really Vik?" My eyes lit up with excitement. I haven't seen Nae in person in monthssssss. I just know she so beautiful with her baby bump. Viktor has become a lot less strict with my life and I love it. I can basically do what I want but I have to run things by him first being that he's a mafia boss and what not. I don't wanna risk things just be going out and living life all freely. A lot of people wants Viktor dead and I don't want to be reason if it happens.

"Yes baby, I know how much she means to you and I know you miss her". He place his hand on the small of my back and placed his forehead on mine. I looked into his eyes.

"Thank you, I'll call her tomorrow.... butttttttt right now I could use your help with Z's crib". I pecked his lips and handed him the instructions while he let out a chuckle.

"Let's see what we got here"

We spent the next few hours trying to together the crib. I could have honestly did the shit myself because Viktor was no help at all. I can atleast say he tried though.

Tia

"GET YO STRUNG OUT ASS OFF THE COUCH, WE GOT GUEST COMING OVER". My sister Asia yelled at she shoved me trying to move me off the couch. She gets on my fucking nerves.

"Please stop yelling, you're going to ruin my high". I groaned as I rolled off the couch. Before I walked out I reached to grab my biggie filled with white substance. I could feel Asia burning a hole in my temper.

"WHAT ?" I spat at her before walking up the stairs but she was coming right behind me.

"Look at you Tia... a fucking junkie.... I understand losing your baby was hard but sis really? Coke?". I didn't have time for another one of Asia's speeches. I walked into my room but before I could close the door she stopped me.

"Fine if you're not going to talk to me atleast talk to your lil sister Tia. She knows what you're doing and she worried". Without saying nothing else she walked away before there was a knock out the door. About 3 months into my pregnancy, I had a miscarriage and my life has been complete shit since. I feel like there's no reason for my existence. Weed wasn't strong enough to numb my pain and needed more. After talking with Ryan that day, he started to come around more often. The "job" Ryan was talking about was dealing and coke happened to be something he sold. Not only did he sell it but he did it himself. After seeing him do it I decided to try it and I've been hooked since. The feeling it give is so numbing but relieving at the same time. I haven't talked to nor seen Jordan or that fat bitch. However, I've been stalking them on social media, seems like they are living their best life and shit. I hate both of them with everything in me because that's supposed to be me. I'm the one who supposed to be pregnant with the perfect man and the perfect fucking life. I hate Jordan and I hate Lanae. If Lanae wasn't never in the picture, I could have had Jordan wrapped around my finger. I got something for them. Snapping me out my thoughts, my room door busted open. Ryan stood in the fame with his eyes low and red, I knew he was high.

"Bitch, why you ain't answer yo phone?" He semi-yelled before closing the door behind him.

"It's dead Ryan". I replied annoyingly while opening the little baggie and pour some on the back of my hand.

"WHAT I TELL YOU BOUT THAT SHIT T." He smacked the biggie out my hand and I jumped up and got in his face.

"TF IS YO PROBLEM NIGGA... THATS ALL I HAD LEFT". Before I knew it I was laying back on my bed holding the side of my face. Ryan had done climbed on top me and was holding down my arms but kissing on my neck.

"Now. Calm tf down. I've done told you about letting yo phone die. Keep it charged at all times. Second, don't be getting big with me.... now you're about to learn". Before I could speak Ryan ripped my sweatpants and panties off me. I knew what was about to happened so I mentally prepared myself. At first, all sex I had with Ryan was wanted but now even if I say no, to him it's a yes. He came and went as he pleased, at this point I just stopped fighting. I had not control over my life. Ryan says how everything goes and I don't try to change it nor bitch about it. It is what it is.

"You gone respect me". Ryan grunted while he forcibly stroke himself in and out of me. I know that if I didn't seem to enjoy it he would continue until he felt like I had enough so I faked moaned a few times. After about 20 more minutes, Ryan was close to his climax and that's when I really put on my acting skills.

"Yesss Ryan, I'm about to cum"

"Fuck Tia". He quickly pulled out and snatch me by my hair to pull my head up so he could ejaculate on my face. He groaned while I closed to eyes and suddenly felt his warm semen all over my face. I felt so disgusted but I allowed it because I mean nobody else wanted me.

"Now clean yo self up. We got shit we gotta do, I'll be outside you got 15 minutes". He slapped me and crawled off the bed and zipped up in pants and walked out. I laid on the bed deciding of whether to kill myself sooner rather than later. However, I got up to quickly wash off so I could be ready on time. I wasn't trying to experience that for another time today.

Sorry for the mistakes 😬