Better Than Dreams [Under editing]

Chapter 29- One Condition

Chapter 29- One Condition

“Ysabel, why don’t you go and see what Seth is up to?” Greg gave me a lingering kiss before pushing me out the door. I finally reached Seth’s house and that’s when I know, this will be my last visit to this house.

Seth greeted me with a smile which I gladly gave back. I’m going to miss that smile, his lips. Everything about him.

“Ysabel! You okay?” Seth looked at me with those loving eyes and guilt waved over me. How can I tell him all of this is a lie? There is zero chance he would love me when he finds out what I really am.

“I’m fine.” I managed to put on a convincing smile which he gave back. Whew! I seriously need to tell him all about me. I can’t live with the guilt anymore. I just can’t.

“Seriously, what’s wrong with you today?” He pulled me towards his bedroom, the room we slept in. The room which held so many painful memories of him, I told myself I wouldn’t hurt the man but what am I doing right now?

“I-er-can we talk?” He sat down on the edge of the bed and he patted the space next to him but I shook my head.

“What is this about? Is it about Ashley?” He put on a worried face. I let out a chuckle and took a deep breath. “You can tell me anything.” Those words, I know he’ll regret saying those words once he knows what I am, who I am.

“I have something important to tell you, I don’t know how you’ll react but I sure as hell am sure you’re going to hate me.” I started pacing back and forth.

“Nothing you say will make me hate you.” I let out a pained laugh, I just wish it were true. “Now, care to tell me what this is all about? You’re making me worried.”

“Seth, everything is a lie.” I looked him in the eye as I say this.

“Don’t even joke about that Ysabel, especially not now.” With those words, I knew I hurt him. I know I will hurt him more than Katrina ever did and that made the guilt a thousand times worse.

“It’s no joke.” I firmly told him and with that, I knew I lost him. “Can I please explain?” I pleaded but he looked at me with those green eyes that says ‘go to hell.’

“What more do you need to explain? What makes you so sure that what you will say next will make me believe you? What more do you want to strip me off? I trusted you! For Christ’s sake! I’m about to marry you! So please enlighten me, what is everything exactly?” I wanted to curl up into a ball and make him hug me tight.

“I-everything-” I let out a deep breath and tried to compose myself. “When I was in college I did drugs.” I started from the very beginning, hoping he would hear me out.

“Everyone tried drugs at least once.” He said in a matter of fact tone.

“I didn’t do it for fun, I used drugs when I needed to stay up late to study. I did drugs to make me sleep. I used drugs for almost everything and then I got stuck.” His eyes flashed with pity and I can’t miss that.

When he didn’t say anything, I continued. “So I needed to pay off my debt and a friend of mine introduced me to a man named as Gold Digger.” His eyes widened so I’m guessing he knows him or have heard of him. “He beat me half to death almost everyday of my life.” It hurt to relive the experiences of the past but I had to tell him.

“Ysabel.” Seth finally croaked out but I stopped him. I’m afraid I won’t be able to tell him the whole story if he stopped me now.

“So, he made me a hooker. One night, I met a man.”