Fire And Ice

Chapter 16

Tris POV: 

A few hours later and we're cascaded into darkness. We all take turns keeping watch whilst the others sleep. I volunteered to do the first two shifts. I don't particularly want to be asleep right now. I'm sat beside Four, I can't tell if he's asleep or not. I stare out the shop window, nothing is going on and I'm starting to get bored. "Tris?" Four says looking at me intently, I turn to look at him. "What's wrong?" He asks me sincerely. I laugh without humour and look back out the window. "What do you think is wrong? The place we grew up in doesn't exist anymore. We were in the Death Games and almost died. You were captured. I have nearly died multiple times. You want to kill me. So you asking 'What's wrong?' needs to be more defined." I bite my tongue to keep from crying. I hate my life right now. 

"I'm so sorry Tris. I just don't know what is real or not at the minute." He replies. Finnick sits up and saves me from having to answer. "If you don't know what's real or not Four, just ask us. We're here to help you." This time it's Four who laughs humourlessly. I take a deep breath and turn to face him. I'm definitely going to cry soon. "You're name is Tobias, your father beat you so when he died you changed your name to Four. You saved my life. You've always wanted to be an instructor. You're smart, caring, kind and honest. Our first date was a picnic at my favourite spot." Tears begin to prick the back of my eyes but I continue. "You're favourite colours are that of a sunset. You are strong. You manage to make everyone around you happy. You always make the right decision. I can't do this." I get up and walk to the other side of the room. I sit next to Peeta and Katniss and close my eyes. "I can't do this." I whisper. 

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