Game Of Destiny

Chapter 39

"you Sure"?.

(Jalal Whispered, breathlessly staring at her, to not miss any emotion of her, a second been passed since they broke the hot passionate kiss. However it wasn't enough for him to know, she's truly ready but it was gesture which mean she's. Panting she open her eyes then look at him, her eyes held lot of emotion, but two emotion which over power all was Determintation to proceed and Fear for intimacy, he needn't to know why these two are over powering the love she have for him. he's well aware of it, the fear speak of Hestitation for Consummation, her insecurity for her fate in his life after taking this step. Whereas Determintation to not let other things or difference stop her. If he wants he can go ahead the thing which hit hard was she wants to do it for him, stop it for him only in both way he has created fear in her, if she denied him he will leave, her if she go ahead he will leave her. "Why"? Cause this is how he's known in his own Harem. But this made him ponder over his own action, did by any chance I made it look like I am agreeing to her wish cause I want her this way"? Perhaps yes"! Cause this what mostly everyone in empire thinks to, he's bewitched by her beauty not by her wisdom. But even mere thought of her thinking the same stung him. And he realised he cannot proceed he's isn't some Saint to leave such a beauty who is ready, he just need to push her and he can have right at this very moment. But he won't he cannot, he can get pleasure from other at moment not from her).

"मुद्दत की तमन्नाओं का आप सिला है, आप पास हो फिर क्या गिला है"!

"ज़माने से हासिल किया है आपको, दिल रजामंद न हो तो क्या मिला है"! 

"You're the result of years of desire, when you are close what's there to complain"? Got you from world"! If heart isn't permitting then what I got"! 

(He spoke then got up, the words were so meaningful that it took Jodha time to understand them. One line he just praised her and felt himself fortunate, and other line he just spoke of his life how he's failing, did he said I am result of his years of desire"? And when I am with him he have nothing to complain"? It's warmed her heart how much he feel for her, but then his line how even getting her he have nothing wound her deeply. But her thoughts comes to abrupt end when she saw him moving away, it's made Jodha realised she took longer then she should , to reply him. And her silence end up speaking of her denial, shaking her head she stare up at him he has taken one step forward, while proceedings to take another step but she held his wrist, then getting up from bed held his Arm. She has thought allot when he ask this. But now she knew what she wants she read his thoughts like he did her's. How just how she can let him go when she end up offending him by her fear"? Letting him go mean giving into her fear"! And she's anything but coward to give into her fear nope not at all. She had to face her fear, defeat her insecurity and for that she needs to really trust him, if she love him then she needs to prove it by trusting him. In love trust is important, in trust love isn't ,because trust is base of love, but love isn't base of trust"! Keeping this in mind she stared at him, His back was facing her so she knew not what he's thinking, but she knew what she needs to do, what she wants to do. Cause if not today then she would never be ready either. Her heart love him, her mind wants him, her soul desire him, her body needs him. There's no backing no denying or giving in fear anymore. There's no emperor empress, playing game of diplomacy or doing what their position demand. It's two individuals soul desire to become one, in truly every way , their relation as husband and wife, gave them right to make their souls desire come true without feeling guilty. Stepping forward she slowly run her hand up from his Arm to shoulder to neck, while her other hand sneaked under his arm on front).