Game Of Destiny

Chapter 33

"Why"?

(Jalal got confused by her one word Question what she mean"?  by her why"? why to question on first place"? whatever he said itself gave clear insight, how much she mean to him. how much he's possessive of her. Then why such a cold confused reaction"? Anyone on her place will ask and react the same way"! comes the reply from his heart. "Why"? come pat question by his mind, He stare at her she was looking at him boldly, with her Curious confused eyes. "Cause your words express endless Possessiveness for her"! Not love which she may desire to see in you hart for herself"! Comes the reply from his heart. But I don't love her or I do"?, I fear to lose her, Possessiveness comes when there's fear of losing. he was struggling with his own emotion, lost in thoughts. And Jodha took chance of him being lost in thought's, to got up from the edge slab of Bath-tub. wearing the Bathrobe she was busy tying the lace. whatever he said had her so thoughtful. That she didn't knew how to react to it however, his last words made her aware for some reason. He's extremely possessive and obsessive about her. But she didn't dare to take that reason as Love, a part of her already take his words to his confession of love but not entirely. Last time she check they were in-to hating mode. trying best to rile up each other. Then time slowly did it's magic on them, which had them come close for while, As normal couple they weren't even friend, admit they decided in heart to start afresh. But how can his emotion can take U-turn so soon"? how he can fall for her "? when he already have lot's of Women in life"? forget about him, "what about her"? even if he loves her, "Does she herself love him"? am I even aware of feeling called Love"? With everything everyone have to offer him. "Am I even worthy of his Love"? other women in harem can accept him in his bad good way's, they can entirely submit themselves to him. by mind ,heart ,soul and body. But she cannot, She cannot be part of his Victory Celebration, if he earn them by Killing the people of Her Mother-land. She cannot blindly support him in his Decision, if she find them to be highly inappropriate. Then why"? even he must be aware of these things, then why he will fall for her"? how he can love her"? She glance at herself in Mirror before her at the side on wall. She's not even much a beauty. Then why leaving all the Women he will be in love with her"? Forget about Love, "why he will be this Possessive and obsessive of her"? Why"? she had no answer to it hence she spoke again. Both were new to the Emotion called love. Immature in love, one had set the boundaries for other. so other wasn't ready to acknowledge them).

"Why"? 

"What you mean"? By why"? 

"You have many in your life", "who are ready to Support you", "In everything you do"! "Then why me"? "We both aren't even familiar", with Emotion called Love"! We both aren't aware the thing which we have for each other in heart called love"! We don't know we are indeed in love"! Then why"? and how"? what makes you so Possessive of me"? 

(Jalal had no answer to any of her Queries, What he can say"? he was himself having these very thought's, he likes to be with her, he care for her, he Like everything about her. the way she talk the way she think, the way she behave, the way she carried herself with grace , her kind heart the purity she possess. everything about her intrigued him he trust her and a part of him respect her. he may not understand her always. He doesn't like it, when she ignore him, he doesn't like it, when she had her attention on other's. Or other's attention are on her. he want her "! But why"? is this Love"? Does he love her"?  maybe no maybe yes God knows what's there in his heart. But unsure about his own emotion, "is it fair of him to mislead her"? by making her think he love her"? Does he even have time to give priority to love"? or figure out whatever, he feel about her is indeed love"? or something else"? back in years he thought he loved that , nameless faceless Landless girl. Later he realized he don't whatever he felt for her was his intuition. She even being simple was mysterious, but Jodha isn't there's still lot of thing he need to know about Her. But she's still very open to him he know her more then he know anyone else. Hell how much he knew about that girl either"? nothing expect her view of life, Her work and way of living he knew nothing about her. He never even get to see her face. However the day was still Afresh in his mind. The day when he met her ,with his brother Nasir friend Amir).